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The point is that you matter @Snowie , and you are on a recovery pathway that looks like the image on the right, not the one on the left ......

Just keep swimming Hon ..... and we are swimming along with you here .....

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Hey @Snowie, I'm so sorry to hear that things are really hard right now, and I can appreciate the complexity of making decisions about hospital with your D's birthday coming up. I understand how hard it can be to imagine a better future when you're feeling so incredibly low. We're here for you 💐

I'll check in with you by email about your wellbeing 💗

@Faith-and-Hope I think the photo you posted above is so accurate

Thanks @Former-Member

@Faith-and-Hope that is a very accurate picture and I think that is what my brain is doing at the moment!!

Somewhere in your reasoning mind you know that these (insert scribble imsge) cycles pass @Snowie ..... so hang in there Hon. Try to reach fir distractions if that helps. It forces the urges to compete with something else that also your attention, and hopefully dilutes them a bit.

Big virtual hugs ❣️

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope

Have had a nice relaxing bath so that has helped a bit.

Just started cooking tea. S had to have two baby teeth removed today so am making a big serving of mashed potato for him!! Got plenty of youghurt, mousse, bananas and other mushy food for him to eat for the next few days!!

What are you up to this afternoon?

Just completed and submitted a major essay over here @Snowie. Glad to have that one behind me now.

I think it is normal not to tell someone when you have SH. You want to reach out for help but at the same time you don't want anyone turning up to your house because your kids and H are home.

Does anyone else have this issue? Sometimes I don't know who to turn to. I have had someone turn up at my house before and I don't want that to happen again.

Hi @Snowie

I agree with you in not wanting to tell anyone about SH. It is really hard to ask for help with this and harder to call a helpline when family is around.

I had a long talk to my GP about it after a few rough days and when I explained why I hurt myself her response was “that makes sense”. It was the first time I felt really understood so then I cried and she was so nice to me.

Ive had the experience of a helpline calling people to check on me and I was mortified as I’m living in a complex so all the neighbours saw who arrived at my door.

I hope you can find someone you can trust to talk about sh but until then there is support here for you.

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I've messed up again today @Eve7

I tried not to but things just became overwhelming.

I don't want someone to turn up with my kids and H here.

I am just not sure what to do now.

I am glad your GP was so understanding hon. Please know that I am here for you too hon.

❤️ @Snowie @Eve7