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@Snowie some sunshine for you day 🙏

Hello also to @Bow @Eve7 @outlander and all here 🌄💛

Had psych via telehealth this morning. Told her I wasn't ok, not coping with things and didn't want to do this anymore. I suprised myself at how open I was considering it was only through tele health. Psych helped a little bit but still lots of emotions and thoughts that I struggle to control.

Got a phone call saying my S's orthodontist appt. is still going ahead. Yet my ect is cancelled. I can't make sense of that. I don't understand how one can go ahead and the other cannot. Maybe because it is MH that it just gets put on the backburner.

Thought yesterday was tough, today is just the same.

I am sorry @Snowie and I really wish I could help.

Do you want a cuppa and some more carrot cake?

A cuppa and some cake sounds great @Eve7

How are you going today?

Jug is boiling @Snowie

I stayed home again today. I had a call from pdoc with a cancellation for Monday so I accepted it. I've also changed health funds as I found one that is $600 cheaper per year...the catch no Psych hospital but that can change if it's needed with no waiting period....I suppose I'll need it some time but just didn't want to discuss it today.

Glad you got an appointment for your pdoc on Monday @Eve7 I hope it helps you.

Wow, that is cheaper hon. Hopefully it covers you for what you need.

I have an appt. with pdoc next week too, but it will just be via phone. He doesn't use zoom or telehealth, think he is stuck in the past!!

My pdoc will use zoom when needed and also lets me take my mask off once I’m in her room which is helpful @Snowie

Our border is likely to be closed for another 10 weeks. Stupid covid.

I can’t say much today. I’m sorry

Please don't be sorry hon @Eve7 You are doing the very best you can and that is enough. I am glad your pdoc uses zoom and you can take your mask off in her rooms. That would make talking easier.

That is a long time to have the border closed. I am hoping we will be out of lockdown soon but cannot see that happening.

Gee it is easy to give others advice but to take that on ourselves, it is extremely hard.

I have to go for awhile. I have my S's PTI soon. Also haven't made wise choices today so need to go take care of a few things.

Why is it that we can give advice to others but taking our own advice is so hard. Perhaps one reason is that we don't think we are worth taking our own advice.

I am sick and tired of complaining, of sh most days, of wanting people to take time away from their own struggles to help me, who I feel is not worth it.

As a CG I am meant to help others and set an example. I don't feel like I am doing a very good job of that. Yes I guess I can relate to others but how can I give them advice when I cannot even follow it myself.

PLease, no responses requird, just mumbling/ranting to myself.

💜❄️💞 @Snowie .....