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My pdoc (and psych) is putting my worsening depression and anxiety down to not seeing my supports and missing so many weeks of ect.

But what if it is not this. What if this is it. What if this is how I am going to be.

I can't keep living my life this way. It hurts emotionally everyday just to get out of bed and try and act as normal as possible, all with a plastered smile on my face. It is mentally exhausting.

I don't know what to do, say, act or think anymore.

I just don't know.

I hear you hun @Snowie

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❤️ @Snowie ....

Hey @Snowie ,

I can imagine it's really scary to think that things won't get better. Especially because sometimes we slip backwards in our journeys, and it might seem like we're back to where we started.

But each time we make progress, we get a little better at it. Each time we slip back, we get better at being able to move forward again.

Sending you strength for this difficult part of your journey

hugs and sitting with you my @Snowie

and i agree with what @Jynx said xx

Hey @Snowie I can imagine all those questions rolling around are really hard to think ...but - and this is a big but - you have come a very long way in the time I have known you. From the outside you continue to seek the support you need, reach out here and support so many with your kindness and compassion - those are things that are part of the person you are and we love you for all of them. The place you are in now is a bit like being caught between 2 different worlds - the one you want and strive to be in and the one that continually pulls you back to the darkness ...that is not a nice place to be but with every day that passes you not only survive but learn more about yourself - that may not be the place you currently want to be nor an easy place to sit but each of those learnings and every little bit of your struggles actually make you stronger - I could not see that years ago myself either as being in the midst of that darkness does not shine the light on our strength and courage ....but those you have in abundance and I can honestly see the day when you too will find the light and be able to look back and say to yourself - I am strong, I am courageous, I am a survivor. Hugs and hugs and hugs Hon 💙💙💙

@Snowie 💞💐🌸💞

Thank you all for your support

I hope all of your days go great today 💜💜💜