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I wish you didn't get it hon @outlander

I don't think I can last 2 more weeks. I haven't been that good lately. Lots of thoughts and actions.

Just made some banana bread, in the oven cooking now. Gave me 30 mins out of my head 🤔

Understand totally @Snowie @outlander

I hope I'm not interrupting

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@Former-Member you are not interrupting hun, you are welcome here anytime.

I hope the day has been kind to you.

How has your day been?

Trying to get through each day. Still unsure about attending mums funeral and having my cousin pass away as well was tough. I hate being a whinger.
D is having more tests and, wow. I don't know how to cope. But I know I have to.
Banana bread sounds yummy. I just managed to do a food shop. Now trying to rest. 🥰

Not so easy to switch the mind off.
I see you're having a super tough time yourself. So sorry to hear that. Big hugs to you @Snowie

Hi @Clawde How are you? I hope life is going ok for you. I noticed you under the support button. 🌸🌷

You are in no way a whinger @Former-Member You are dealing with so much at the moment, especially with the passing of your mum and cousin.

No doubt you will make the best decision for you, in relation to going to your mums funeral or not.

I hope everything with D turns out alright hun.

I know you are struggling too hun and I wish it wasn't the case for either of us.

It is super hard to switch the mind off and just to get through each day. I try to start afresh every day but even that is hard to do. Too many "what if's"

I honestly don't think I can cope with going. Bro and all the hidden secrets. Plus other people that have been so hurtful. It's all too much. I want to say goodbye to mum, but so many people that will be there have hurt me so much. @Snowie

I can understand that @Former-Member I wouldn't go anywhere my brother (and some other family) is either.

Can you make your own little memorial to your mum and say goodbye in your own way. Lighting of a candle, burying something (maybe a photo) in the graden, planting a plant, something personal to say goodbye. It could be your own little service. Just because you don't go doesn't mean you still can't say goodbye to her.

I hate that everyone will say, oh, she's so terrible for not going to her mum's funeral. I need to get over that.

Family members are being so proud that they were there when she passed. Yet I spent so many years caring for mum, dad and my disabled sister. Now I'm the bad one. Why is this so hard to get through?

I was just thinking today of the people that will be there. Oh my gosh! I'd be crazy to go.
So many places I worked volunteering and they've just ignored me etc It's like I never existed.

Meaning, they'll be there too. The last time I worked volunteering, they all just ignored it that I was going through a super tough time, with a terrible man that ..... me

When I apologised that I couldn't come into work and said why, that just said, ok.
What is wrong with everyone.