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It’s a big day isn’t it? You’ll sleep well tonight and hopefully ready to face the weekend @Snowie

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It is a big day @Eve7

I had a nap before as I didn't sleep well last night so hopefully that will help too.

How are you going today?

My day has been full @Snowie

I saw my Psych this morning then a blood test. Home for lunch then pedicure and hairdressers to cover my grey.

I return to work on Monday for 5 hours a day except for Wednesday which is ECT day.

pdoc wants me at work as he thinks any longer off and it will be too hard. He’s also concerned that Im spinning out every time something upsets me and he wants me to use other strategies.

I am scared but there will be good support and I can stop if too overwhelming.

watch this space

Sounds like it has been a full day for you hun but some self care in there too @Eve7

I am hoping that going back to work is a good thing for you, even though it would be scary. Hoping also that you have support there sweetie. I guess all you can do is try it and see how you go. If it doesn't work at least you can say that you tried.

Putting strategies in place can be hard at times, especially when we spiral out of control. I hope they help you.

Thanks @Snowie for understanding. Sometimes strategies work but often they don’t.

I feel that the support will be there. It is just the thought of having to fake that I’m ok which is exhausting.

Do you have any weekend plans?

Yeah it is easy to put the strategies in place but using them is another story all together, especially when we are distressed. I have a good list of strategies but using them is another story all together...

It is exhausting trying to act like everything is ok when it's not @Eve7 Putting on that fake smile takes so much energy and effort.

Haven't really got any plans for the weekend. Think it will be just a quiet one doing a few things around the house plus some food shopping. My life is so exciting!! 🤔🤔

Have you got many plans for the weekend hun?

I am catching up with friends I haven’t seen for ages on Sunday @Snowie

We go way back...went to each other’s weddings last century! I love them dearly and they’re the type of friends who just accept me which is special.

I’ll also go for a walk and brekky tomorrow with girl friends. I want to keep busy so I don’t think too much about Monday.

Sounds like a busy but nice weekend @Eve7

I hope you enjoy the time with your friends. It is sometimes hard to find people who accept us for how we are so I am glad you have got those friends around you.

The friends I'm seeing on Sunday had a huge tragedy in their fmily a few years ago and unfortunately that is what makes them such genuine compassionate people @Snowie

Do you have any friends that have stuck by you?

I haven't got any real friends @Eve7

I find it hard to relate to people in real life. I also don't really have any friends that know exactly what is happening with me. I guess you could say I am a 'loner'.