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My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor15 Feb 2018, 9:51 am AEDT

My special place

Well yesterday certainly threw everything off track. But thanks to some very thoughtful and kind people I was able to get threw it and continue.

I cannot say a lot about what happened as I am sure you all understand but need this support in place.

Things WILL be ok, just a lot to work out.

Psych visit yesterday sorted out some of the things and more things will be happening early next week.

I am sorry if I put anyone through any despair, but unfortunately what happened yesterday morning had to be done.

Thank you all for your continued support.

@outlander@Sans911@Former-Member@Bubbles3@Bunniekins@Shaz51@CheerBear@Phoenix_Rising@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Queenie@Former-Member

Brain still not functioning anyone so sorry if I missed anyone

for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!

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Shaz51Senior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 3:46 pm AEDT

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@Snowie

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 4:34 pm AEDT

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@Snowie ❤

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PepsimaxSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 4:44 pm AEDT

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Look after yourself @Snowie here for you

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:15 pm AEDT

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its really good to see you @Snowie are you alright?

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SnowieSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:28 pm AEDT

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Thanks to everyone for all of your concerns

The other night things went a bit wrong. Things got too much, tried to reach out for help and was ignored even after an olive branch was offered. Ended up SH. Yesterday I saw my psych and was an extremely hard session on top of getting triggered big time is the session. Looking back, I shouldn't have left his office but I did and ended up in a bad way. I spoke to SCBS to try and calm my negative thinking down but unfortunately this didn't help.

Last night was very hard with a lot of SH happening and SI thoughts. If it wasn't for Hubby's intervention yesterday then I don't think I would be writing this. I was very close to going to the ED but didn't want to be placed in the public system. Ended up taking enough meds to knock myself out for about 8 hours.

Today has been a bit better but still very negative thoughts running through my head. I don't know why they are so intense and why my strategies are not working. I have spoken to my pdoc today and have an emergency appointment with him tomorrow as I am struggling to control my SI and SH. Hopefully he can help a bit. He did mention going back into the hospital

So we will see what occurs after tomorrow. Thanks again for your support, I am sorry if I upset any of you.

@Pepsimax@outlander@Shaz51@Sans911@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@Bunniekins

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:38 pm AEDT

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I am super glad you have your husband there to support you @Snowie. I don't really have anything helpful to say, but I'm thinking of you.

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SnowieSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:41 pm AEDT

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Thanks @Phoenix_Rising. One thing my psych spoke about yesterday is EMDR and instead of me going somewhere, he will bring someone trained in it into our sessions. I thought that would be super helpful and after you asking me about it the other day, I thought of you straight away.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:44 pm AEDT

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Not upset @Snowie ..... but very concerned for you .... ❣️

I am very glad your husband is there for you too. Keep swimming Hon. So proud of you. You are trying everything you can think of ..... just focus on survival for now ..... and good to hear you have an emergency appointment - support for you and hubby to get through this .....

Hugs, and thank you for keeping us in the loop .....

💜❄️💐💕

Hi @Phoenix_Rising. Love that you are here ..... sitting .... 🌷🌿

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:46 pm AEDT

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@Snowie So happy to see you back but very sad that you are not doing well atm. I thought we had lost you first Li1, then mohill and ... bad luck comes in 3s so they say.xxx

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Sans911Senior Contributor22 Mar 2018, 7:47 pm AEDT

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How could I be upset with you when you are fighting the enemy within, and struggling to stay alive with every fibre of your body? I just feel so helpless & limited by these forums that I can't reach out to you in a practical way, like call you or come over and give you gentle hugs, wipe your tears and look after you.

I'm here tonight as I'm sure others are for you if you need support, distraction, talking it just sitting. Please take care hun. I know you are doing your very best right now. I understand that might feel like it to you, but you are. Xxxxxxx

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