My special place

i thought you might like them @Snowie a drive sounds good but please stay safe ok. you said hubs will talk to you after kids are in bed too so if your emotional might not be a good idea to drive then

@outlanderI need to get out, my brain is so f**ked up at the moment, I keep losing it

ok @Snowie but at least tell hubby your going for a drive so your not 'missng' you safety is important to me

@outlanderI'm sorry hun, I don't want to put you through this. I am going to go. All I do is winge and complain on here and it is so not like me. I don't even recognise myself anymore. I hate who have I become, I hate myself. I don't want this anymore. I want the pain gone.

Thank you sis @outlander

Thanks also to @Faith-and-Hope for your support tonight and for always

you already know what i would say to that @Snowie mh is a bi**ch, you can complain and whinge (which your not!) we are here for you and listening

big hugs, please keep safe and reach out offline if you need to as well. i wont be asleep for a while so if you want sme company later just tag me. will continue to sit here with you anyway

@outlanderI know but I don't want to upset you at all.

I am struggling to fight it tonight. I tried to reach out offline twice and it didn't help. I don't matter, they just say the same thing.

your not upsetting me at all @Snowie you do matter, you matter alot sis

we also found the name of those flowers they are called Crocus

Hi @Snowie @outlander

Sitting with you.

SP