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@Snowiejust wondering how your holding up? hoping that your psych appt was helpful today

Just need to unload.

M has been at it again, unloaded all her baggage onto me. Told me she has ptsd because of what I have been through and taking my b out of my life. Told me that deep down I should be able to forgive him and that he still doesn't know what he did wrong. I didn't even wish him a happy birthday. Claims she is moving out and that me being in hospital is hard on the kids and that H goes out all the time and leaves them by themselves. I can go on and on but what is the point. She makes sure she says all of this to me the day H goes into work. She wouldn't dream of doing it in front of him.

Blah, blah, blah, here I go again.

Hi @Snowie that is so manipulative. You could offer to help her pack.

i am here for you too. We’re not doing this marathon alone my friend.

Do you want a cuppa?

Love, big love

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@Snowie

Everyone is angry at me. H won't talk to me since I comfirmed this morning that I am going back in Sunday. M is still angry with me and says she is moving out. I am so very tired of trying to please everyone and stuffing everything up. Now I am doubting going in, thinking it would be better for everyone if I just rode it out at home. I just don't want to face this anymore, it is so debilitating and draining.

Only you can make this decision

Lots of love @Snowie hugs darling girl 🤗🤗

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@Snowie You are the one that matters most here Hon and need to make this decision for yourself both now and in the future. Your family need to support that decision - especially if it is going to help you longer term. As for your mother - I think we would all like to pack her bags for you to relieve you of the constant comments and abuse. Maybe if she only believes your B then she can live with him and find out just how lucky she has been to be living with you for so long. Do not let her veiled threats get to you - if she is going to use such emotional blackmail on you then tell her to go and see how she likes that. Yes Hon I am angry for you and sitting right beside you in all of this You matter

Thanks @Zoe7 @Eve7

I hate when H is pissed off at me. He just goes quiet and doesn't talk to me and is really blunt with what he says to me.

I can't handle it

I just want to hide