My special place

Yep I get where you are at @Snowie and do know how incredibly hard it is so I am just going to sit here with you so you know you are not alone

Still sitting with you too @Snowie Those nights are so incredibly hard - you can't see anything but the bottom of the well and at that bottom is all those memories and fears. See us here as the bucket in that well for you to sit in and us at the top helping to pull you up - whatever you need Hon

Still here with you @Snowie I have a little fluffball laying next to me on the doona - he is sooo cute making his little puppy sounds in his sleep. How is Izzy?

Glad you have Toby next to you, I know you have been struggling too @Zoe7

Izzy is asleep on my lap helping me stay in the moment.

This morning I thought it could not get worse and then bam, things came crashing down. I don't feel connected anywhere, I don't want to winge and complain on here but I have no other outlet atm. I just want to go.

I have been feeling exactly the same as you @Snowie - there is no point talking about it because why would anyone care - but we do very much care Hon. It super sucks that things are so bad for you right now and I have no answers - bit by bit, minute by minute we get through hey. Definitley here with you and wanting to listen because despite how you are feeling I really care for you and hate seeing you in so much pain. If I can help you in any way then I am all yours

@Snowie Toby is asleep on the remote so I can't change the station lol - and certainly won't moving my little sleeping baby

I feel bad for writing about my troubles on here. I feel enough people are struggling and I don't want to add to their troubles. I don't want to be that person that always comes on here and complains. Others have it much worse then me and can hold it together so why can't I. I feel like I should be supporting people on here instead of complaining. I can't even seem to support those closest to me on here that are having their own troubles.

I just don't know how to be on here at the moment.

I think I better go for now. I need to try and find a way to get through tonight. I don't feel confident but I will try.

I'm sorry

@Zoe7 @Sans911

Firstly @Snowie you have nothing to be sorry for and secondly - you have every right to be here and gain support for what you are going through. You are not in a good place and if we cannot be here for you when you are dealing with all this then what is the point of the forum!!!! It is also through our own struggles that we can empathise with you, share with you and care for you - and that has to be a positive for us all - we are in this together no matter what we are all feeling or going through and you deserve just as much support as anyone - and while I am about that is exactly what you will get Hon ...unconditional support. You are loved here my sweet Snowie and we want to be here for you - it is hard to be suffering so much but to be alone in that suffering is even worse - so know you are not alone and we are here for you