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My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor15 Feb 2018, 9:51 am AEDT

My special place

Well yesterday certainly threw everything off track. But thanks to some very thoughtful and kind people I was able to get threw it and continue.

I cannot say a lot about what happened as I am sure you all understand but need this support in place.

Things WILL be ok, just a lot to work out.

Psych visit yesterday sorted out some of the things and more things will be happening early next week.

I am sorry if I put anyone through any despair, but unfortunately what happened yesterday morning had to be done.

Thank you all for your continued support.

@outlander@Sans911@Former-Member@Bubbles3@Bunniekins@Shaz51@CheerBear@Phoenix_Rising@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Queenie@Former-Member

Brain still not functioning anyone so sorry if I missed anyone

for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!

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outlanderSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:03 pm AEST

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im glad speaking to your psych in email helped abit. it really sucks and is awful but sometimes it is about riding out the storm isnt it and just keeping safe until it passes a little bit @Snowie
dissociation makes it even harder to manage since we done always know what we are doing in that mode. are you able to recognise when your starting to dissociate and does anything help to bring you back to reality abit?

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SnowieSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:22 pm AEST

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I cant recognise when I am about to dissociate @outlander By that time my emotions are in full force and I struggle to do anything to bring them down. Most of the time I am not safe when I dissociate. It is a struggle. I try things that I have learnt in DBT, sometimes they help, sometimes not.

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outlanderSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:29 pm AEST

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that makes it really tricky doesnt it @Snowie i cant really tell when im going to dissociate either, only prepare for some events when i know i tend to do it.
its hard when unexpected events cause it though such as being triggerred.
maybe your pdoc or psych could help you learn to recognise some of your signs?

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SnowieSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:35 pm AEST

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I am hoping DBT will help @outlander with the tools I am learning in that. I just have to try and keep going. However I am worried about the path I am heading down again. It is very dark and lonely.

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Unknown userMember05 July 2019, 9:36 pm AEST

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Hi @Snowie

I'm sorry to read you're struggling. It sounds like you're really trying to stay safe but your emotions and mind can feel like the enemy. But your disassociation is sometimes a way to protect your mind from the really distressing things you might be experiencing.

I hope you are taking care of yourself, whereever you are.

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outlanderSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:39 pm AEST

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i do hope it helps in time and once youve had plenty of practice at the new skills you learn and have yet to learn about @Snowie @Former-Member made a good point about dissociation is a way your brains trying to cope with the traumas too.

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SnowieSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:43 pm AEST

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Thanks @Former-Member I know it is my way of protecting myself from my traumas. I just have unhealthy behaviours when I dissociate.

@outlanderI'm sorry to put this onto you. I struggle to talk to H about it, I don't want him to worry. I am trying not to do what I did last night again.

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outlanderSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 9:52 pm AEST

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your not putting anything onto me @Snowie im glad that your talking tonight. i want and am more then ok to be here for you.
Do you want to keep talking about how to cope or would something else be more helpful?

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Unknown userMember05 July 2019, 9:54 pm AEST

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I'm sorry to read when you disassociate behaviours also end up being distressing for you @Snowie

@outlander you are right that there are supports out there. Take care of yourself too.

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SnowieSenior Contributor05 July 2019, 10:04 pm AEST

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I think I have spoken enough about myself tonight @outlander I feel like I am being an attention seeker. I don't want to keep being this way.

Its getting too hard again so Ive taken my meds. They will hopefully make me sleep for a bit.

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