Hi all,
I am finally home from hospital after 3 weeks in there. It was a wonky ride in there with some good and some bad days over this time. It felt like a bit of a roller coaster. After another unsuccessful attempt it was decided I needed to stay in hospital for awhile to let the new meds start to work. Thankfully they have helped with minimal side effects and I can start to see the fog lifting. I still have high SI and SH but can say that I am safe for the moment. It is still a case of getting by day by day but at least now I can see a future, where as 3 weeks ago I could see nothing worth surviving for.
The pdoc I had was really helpful and helped with being able to start talking about past traumas and how my actions are harming myself. I saw him almost every day and it was a good support for me. I have an appointment with my regular pdoc next week so I will still be able to have his support, which I still need.
Whilst in there, I was still able to go to DBT. We have started Emotional Regulation which I find hard to comprehend. I shut down my emotions a lot I have found and become very numb, especially with the bad emotions I have. I have also started my individual session for DBT which I have had 2 sessions. The faciliatators seem nice and am finding I am slowly feeling more comfortable in the group session. I still rarely speak out loud but hopefully that will change over time.
I know I haven't been on here for quite awhile but I have been reading and following along with your threads.
@Faith-and-HopeI hope your are having a great holiday and know you will be reading along.
@Zoe7I am glad the meds are kicking in and that work is going good for you. I hope your mouth isn't too painful after today and that you can as least eat soft foods.
@outlanderwell done on your role as community guide. You deserve it hun and will be a great asset for Sane. You should be proud of yourself.
@Sans911I hope your infection clears up with the help of the meds. Also well done on going through with the exam. I know it probably wasn't the easiest thing to do.
I have missed you all on here and have kept you all close to me especially through the darkest of times. It was hard to acknowledge that I needed help and even harder asking for it. I know you all know how hard that can be. I look forward to getting back into everyday life and being able to offer/receive support on here. I feel like I have been in a bubble the last 3 weeks and am now back into the real world. Is quite a bit to get used to again and very anxiety provoking for me. (Nice deep breaths!!!)
Sorry to anyone who I have missed tagging but my brain is a bit muddled up today.
Big love and hugs for all.
for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!
