My special place

Radical acceptance is a tricky one to get your head around @Snowie - it was for me the first time but much easier the second time around. I don't think I was in the right headspace the first time I did it - it was my first module and I was struggling to even be there. It seems like you are in a much better place than I was when I started DBT - it does take time to get into it and feel comfortable enough to do it. It makes a big difference if the group is a good group and I have been really lucky to have that (the first couple of modules we had a couple of people that dominated but it got much easier when they left).

I hope the ups keep coming for you Hon - you have come so far already and I am so happy for the progress you have made. It is always lovely to hear from you and having your message here this afternoon was a lovely surprise. Hugs and hugs Hon - been missing you but you are always in my thoughts

@outlander

My day has been ok. Had psych today and did some more exposure therapy.

H has had a bit of a meltdown. He doesn't think my psych is doing enough to help me and wants to know more about everything going on. Even though I know I am lucky to have his support, I am not ready to tell him everything. He has gone out for awhile to a friends house which I think he needs.

Still don't know the result of the MRI so got that to worry about too.

The pdoc made another med change on Monday. I am hoping that is the end of the med changes even though I still have some side effects.

For the first time in about 4 weeks I have had SH urges. Have been trying to distract myself today to try and keep them at bay.

Sorry, just unloaded everything then

How are you going hun?

The pdoc ordered the MRI so I might try and ring his rooms in the morning. I am hoping the no news is good news applies with the results.

My meds are working, it is just having to put up with the side effects that is the difficult part. But I am learning to live with them. I know I can't go of my meds so it is just something I have to learn to live with.

I am hoping H has some time to cool down and come home in a better mood. I feel so torn between telling him everything and keeping some information to myself. I had the psych today and he wants to know what we discussed in the session. I don't feel comfortable but he doesn't seem to understand that.

@outlander

I'll come up with something to tell him @outlander. I know he deserves more but he will just have to live with the fact that I am not ready to tell him everything and might never be ready.

What have you been up to today?