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@Zoe7

The facilitator said we could change some columns if we wanted to and we will do that with who we meet. I have already crossed out substance use as it will always be 0 and written 'flashbacks' there as that is more of an issue for me. SI and SH divided for me would be good as they can both change during the day too and can change over night depending on what sort of night I am having. I like that idea hun, thanks

No worries @Snowie

I think it is well worth changing those things to what works for you. I could definitely see the difference between day and night and even which days were the worst - usually Sunday as I said earlier and the couple of days before DBT - that has changed lately though. I am not as anxious about going to DBT but can often have a bad night on a Wednesday night if there has been anything that triggered me during DBT or my pdoc session and sometimes afterwards I am more susceptible to triggers because I am so tired.

Time to get dinner organised - catch you later @Snowie

Thinking of you Hon - hoping you are as okish as you can be and sending you some extra love and hugs @Snowie

Just checking in

@Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@outlander@Sans911

Thank you for checking in Hon - missing you @Snowie but understand

I see my psych every week. He is away for 3 weeks and it is too hard, I rely on him too much to talk things through. He understands me. If I ring a helpline and tell them the truth, they just say ring CATT (who I have rang before and say they can't help me) or want to send someone out. I don't want that. I can't be truthful with anyone.

I am tired, I had too many meds last night. The only good thing is they knocked me out and I got some sleep, some time away from my crappy life.

Too many thoughts are in my head and I can't stop them. I want out of this.

It is really hard for you at the moment @Snowie - can so much hear that in your words. Sitting with you Hon and listening

Hearing you @Snowie

I'm glad you've come here when you feel like this. Try not to beat yourself up over what you have done over the weekend. I've done the same thing.

If you can, acknowledge the thoughts in your head, then let them go, like putting them on a leaf in a stream or on a cloud in the sky.

Have you read that letter lately that I wrote to you?

I've got a few hours this morning hun to sit with you, and that's exactly what I will do. You mean the world to me, that's how important you are. My kindred spirit. I'll sit beside you, and you can cry on my shoulder, I can give you a hug or we can just sit.