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hey @Snowie it's good to hear from you.

i can see how hard this must be for you, wish there was a way we could make it easier.

out of curiousity, does the hospital you do ECT at offer any form of transport/discounted travel, etc? i know some hospitals have non-emergency patient transports, and different hospitals might have different options.

hope you're gentle with yourself tonight 💙

So had psych via telehealth today

Spoke mostly about my mental state at the moment. Her wanting me to do more, get out of the house more. Me having a win if I take a shower.

Duty of care came up again. Really couldn't care less.

She hasn't heard back from pdoc yet.

Set some basic goals. Not much hope but will try.

See her in 2 weeks. Last face to face appt. for the year.

@rav3n

Must have posted at same time. Above message too.

I'm not sure if they offer discounted travel. We live over an hour away from the hospital, so even if they do, I can't see them coming all the way out to where I live just for one person.

Also when I get picked up, H has to sign a form saying he will stay with me, not let me drive, not let me sign any documents. Normal stuff after an anesthetic. I don't think a 'driver' could do that.

@Snowie I’m so sorry to hear how much you are struggling. Try to stay strong dear. Thinking of you.

Thanks @GezzaP for being a good friend

Look after yourself

Gosh, this must be a lot to manage and carry on your own @Snowie...

I can see you are doing everything you can to get support and you should be so proud of yourself. On the other hand, it sounds like you're feeling a little disheartened after your appointment? 💛

Yes I’m ok. A bit sore from acupuncture and firm massage. You take care stay safe. @Snowie

i can see that there's a lot on your mind at the moment @Snowie, and i imagine it's draining having to worry about ECT, not seeing psych f2f for a few months while also setting goals for yourself. you'll still have telehealth sessions till next year, right? but i do get that telehealth isn't the same.

oh yeah, i can see how it would be tricky with the forms. it might still be worth chatting to your treating team about, just to see if there's any alternatives they can think of too - sounds like this extra ECT session could help (side note: it also has me wondering how people with no supports get to and from ECT appts!)

how are you unwinding tonight? hope you get some quiet time to recharge 💙

@GezzaP I'm trying but not going well

I don't feel proud @AuntGlow Just another example of failing, crossing that line.

Sometimes after appointments I think I just say things to make her happy. Yes I'll try this, try that, yet inside me is telling me no. It's not my psych's fault, she's only trying to help. It's me.

I should be grateful I have a psych @rav3n I know there are lots that don't even have that.

She hasn't opened her books for next year yet so I don't know what will happen. If it goes all to telehealth I'll have to find someone new.

When I leave ect there are normally others getting picked up too. From what I see it's normally a partner/relative or a friend.

I have no plans for tonight. Just sitting in silence.

H is out at a friends. Not bothering him.

Hang tough @Snowie