My special place

Thanks @tyme there is a lot on my mind. Really too much to be able to organise.

I'm scared that if I open up, I won't have the support to continue with it. I know I have here, and am grateful for it, but that one on one support isn't there for quite a while.

At this stage, I'm just trying to follow my SP.

Go slow @Snowie and just do what you can. Reach out if you feel you need to talk to someone.

Is hubby or the kids at home with you?

I have reached out @tyme but it's still hard to open up.

I know they say that getting things out can help, but opening that can of worms is difficult and scary.

I know where I'm heading, I'm just trying to stop it.

I have hubby and son at home with me so am safe for tonight. Hopefully sleep comes a little easier tonight too.

I'm going to log off now. If I don't talk to you again I really hope that you have a great time on your holiday and can make me great memorable moments.

Take good care of you.

Sometimes, the phone lines don't 'fix' things, but it's someone to talk to to keep you safe.

Thank you for letting me know you are logging off or I'd be worried.

I'll see you when I get back @Snowie

Please take care. Self care first!

@Snowie 💕💕

Spoke to pdoc yesterday. Was going to go see him but couldn't concentrate enough to drive that far. He's about an hour away.

Wants to increase some meds and increase ECT and do an admission 😔He wants to talk to H too. I have to call if SI gets worse.

sounds like a tough spot to be put in, sending you some love 💗 @Snowie

Thanks @rav3n

He wants to see me (in person) in 2 weeks time. I guess with my psych away it's probably a good idea. I'm scared if I contact him he will make me go in.

I just want to sleep and forget everything.

❤️❤️ @Snowie

it's good you've got that option to see him while your psych is still away @Snowie but also completely valid to be overwhelmed about it. wanting to rest and shut everything out for a bit is such a human response when your brain’s this tired. has your sleep been poor lately?