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My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor15 Feb 2018, 9:51 am AEDT

My special place

Well yesterday certainly threw everything off track. But thanks to some very thoughtful and kind people I was able to get threw it and continue.

I cannot say a lot about what happened as I am sure you all understand but need this support in place.

Things WILL be ok, just a lot to work out.

Psych visit yesterday sorted out some of the things and more things will be happening early next week.

I am sorry if I put anyone through any despair, but unfortunately what happened yesterday morning had to be done.

Thank you all for your continued support.

@outlander@Sans911@Former-Member@Bubbles3@Bunniekins@Shaz51@CheerBear@Phoenix_Rising@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Queenie@Former-Member

Brain still not functioning anyone so sorry if I missed anyone

for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!

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Unknown userMember19 Feb 2018, 10:15 pm AEDT

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Just read your post @Snowie,I hope the admission is a positive step and understand your insight into your problems.Am the same,no longer care and I'm giving up which is easier for me as no one in my everyday life cares.

Can't help you ,regarding the kids,hoping you can discuss that with your husband,and what you feel comfortable with,but maybe hiding it from them is causing more anxiety,but fully understand the shame you feel.I forget what age you said they were but they must sense something is wrong with you,it's a hard one,only you know what to do.Havent read the others opinions yet.

Just take one day at a time.

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outlanderSenior Contributor19 Feb 2018, 10:17 pm AEDT

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No pressure @Snowie forums have died down now 💜

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SnowieSenior Contributor19 Feb 2018, 11:59 pm AEDT

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I changed my mind i cant do this.

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Sans911Senior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 12:25 am AEDT

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Can't do what @Snowie?

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SnowieSenior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 12:31 am AEDT

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It’s ok @Sans911 you go to sleep hun, just battling with my own head

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Sans911Senior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 1:01 am AEDT

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@Snowie- ah, nope can't let you get away with that. I'm back in my room. Awake for a little longer. Share your thoughts if you want to.

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SnowieSenior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 1:13 am AEDT

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@Sans911

I don’t think I can do it, go through with Hosp.

i know I am freaking myself out. Maybe I am not as bad as I thought I was and would be ok not going. What happens if I go in and they just think I shouldn’t be there, maybe I am taking the bed from someone who really needs it.

what will my kids think, their mum is in a mh unit. How can they visit me there. I am so angry and ashamed at myself for letting it get this far. I should have been able to control it better.

I am not worth it, give it to someone who is.

i am panicking now over this so much. I don’t want it, maybe I can just go away

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Sans911Senior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 1:27 am AEDT

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@Snowie - STOP. You need to take some slow, deep breaths. You're overthinking everything and for now, as hard as it is, just put it aside for tonight.

Trust me hun, you need to go to hospital. Why would they suggest it otherwise? You needed to go to hospital a long time ago. You know children better than I do. They are smarter than we give them credit for and they probably know something is wrong with you. They will understand and will only want their mother to be well again some day. And it can be explained to them in a sensitive, easy to understand manner.

And you know if you go away, your demons will still be there. They will not give you peace.

Being a mh patient is not all bad. You dress in your own clothes, you can go out on leave, your kids can visit and there's usually gardens to sit in,you can do activities like meditation, craft activities, cooking sometimes, learning coping strategies.

You are so worth this @Snowie. You are so important and you matter very, very much. But you need to see that and believe it yourself. You have to feel worthwhile and that you're important too. But that's a hard one for now, because you're in such a difficult space. You'll be ok @Snowie, you will but you need more help than you're getting now. And it's well overdue.

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SnowieSenior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 1:35 am AEDT

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@Sans911 I know I am overthinking things, my brain is going non stop, sleep is impossible tonight. I want it to all go away NOW. I can’t go through this. I’m sorry I don’t want to lump it onto you at this time of night.

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SnowieSenior Contributor20 Feb 2018, 4:11 am AEDT

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Anyone awake at all???

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