My special place

Thanks @Jynx

Very hesitant to be here.

Spoke to my pdoc this morning and saw my psych. My pdoc wants to admit me, but knows it is a struggle b/c of my mum and no one else to care for her. Still waiting for approval for respite.

My psych told me I have till the end of tomorrow to tell Hubby what I've been doing (he knows some) and let her know or else she is ringing him.

Lots of internal struggles today.

That's rough @Snowie I know how difficult it is to feel like you're having your agency removed. It's awful, even when it's 'for the best' and stuff. And it's so annoying that once again your care must revolve around your mother's. I know you both deserve care but they shouldn't be in this weird.... idk constant plate-spinning process. Very, very frustrating.

It's okay if you don't wanna linger. If you need to get stuff off chest, here to listen. If you need some distractions, jump on into some social spaces or idk pick a topic, you know how I can ramble 😝

But sometimes we do just need the quiet, need to not have anyone wanting anything from us or drawing on our energy. That's always okay too, you know if you wanna just click support and disappear I'll understand. You don't owe the forums any time or energy you haven't to spare, we just wanted you to know we care 😉 (Ooh a cheeky rhyme hehe)

Big love 🫂🫂

I wanted to reply and say thanks for understanding @Jynx

I know now my psych will call hubby (and prob pdoc again). She said she has a duty of care.

Another reason why reaching out is hard. They would prob say/do the same thing.

Again, thank you but need to go. I can't do this.

leaving you some love for when you do hop back on the forums 💙 @Snowie thinking of you.

I’m in a cafe @Snowie sending you lots of love. I just bought a new suitcase from David Jones!! I saw one for over $1000 and thought I’d better go somewhere else but then I saw one for a quarter of the price that felt like a bargain. Oh well…I’m happy 😊

💜💜💜💜💜💜

Forgot to tell you I sent a lil email @Snowie

Sending much 💜 and many 🫂🫂🫂

Dumping a big ol pile of hugs right here for you @Snowie you can come grab one whenever you need 💕💕

Last few days have been trying

How much is life really worth

That silence can be deafening

Hugs @Snowie

Sounds tough

I'm here for you

So much in my head @tyme yet still won't come out.

Even writing isn't helping. Maybe I'm scared of what will happen. Loss of control.