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hey @Snowie i'm really sorry that you feel this way. i really wish i could make that feeling disappear. you mentioned your 'thoughts won' - just wanted to check-in what you meant by that?

glad to hear H is coming home! what sort of christmasing have you done so far?

Can't really say on here @rav3n

Put the tree up and decorated around the house

@Snowie that's okay, i'm just going to send through a quick email to check-in with you about this.

that christmas tree looks incredible!!! and you've got a couple gifts under the tree already? or are they for show?

They are just for show @rav3n

I have more things around the house too.

At least it has filled in my morning.

The dog doesn't really like it, she is scared of the tree!

@Snowie ahh phew for a moment i was thinking 'wow everyone's already started their gift shopping? i must be behind'

do you decorate the front of your house for Christmas too? i love driving past all those decorated houses throughout December

I've started shopping for the kids @rav3n

I like the type of shopping where I can sit on the couch and have it just sent to my door!! I hate crowds, they make my anxiety rise.

We used to decorate it when the kids were young but not now. We live on land so a big job.

@Snowie

i feel you, going to shopping centres overwhelm especially when i go alone. i love a good online shopping, if only shipping/delivery fees didn't exist...

oh yeah fair enough! it does seem tedious. my family doesn't celebrate christmas but i absolutely love the christmas spirit so one day i really want to decorate my house in an extravagant way... but the idea of buying lights/inflatables and setting them up... maybe next time. what do you usually do for Christmas?

I hate the shipping charges too @rav3n

I normally go with H so that helps a bit

Was brought up with Christmas being a big thing. I normally have it at my house with H family and my mum. I don't see the rest of my family which in itself causes problems.

I had some Trauma on Christmas day a long time ago. So if it was up to me then I would just stay in bed and wait for the day to be over.

Are there any days/month that your family does celebrate?

H got home last night. Was nice just to have his company. Felt a bit like a security blanket.

I have had a nice morning. Even though just being out of the house was anxiety provoking, D and I went shopping together. Prn did help settle me down a bit. She is always working, at uni or at her boyfriends house, so it was nice just to spend some time together and have a chat to her about how everything was going.

D goes to NZ in about 12 days by herself. My not so little girl is going on her first solo adventure. Whilst I am happy that she is starting to travel and see the world, a part of me wants her to stay at home so I can protect her. I guess we all need to learn to let go at some stage.

Hoping the afternoon goes ok too.

aww sounds like such a lovely morning @Snowie glad you got some time to catch up with D! oh wow solo trip to NZ sounds amazing, is she going north or south islands?
totally fair to feel mixed about it, it's a big learning stage for both of you. have you solo travelled before?