My special place

@creative_writer you certainly have to be special to be able to work in supporting others with their mental health. It would certainly be hard.

Didn't help as much as I would have liked it to @rav3n

I don't normally read back what I've written in my journal, so this time it's a bit different.

I see her tomorrow morning.

Each day seems like a battle with myself. The want is just not there.

It certainly is a skill @creative_writer and a very special skill too.

Even though your placement was hard and exhausting, I really hope you got some things out of it.

I don't think the healing ever ends @creative_writer We are always a work in progress.

It is hard dealing with it everyday, especially when things aren't going well

oh i see, i don't normally read what i've written in my journal either. did you find reading it helped you process/understand yourself better? - it's still great that you gave it a go anyways, it's not easy being honest about ourselves so really proud of you doing this @Snowie hopefully tomorrow's psych appointment goes well.

is there anyone you can reach out to tonight? are you safe?

i can see how exhausting this must be for you, your feelings are valid. don't forget to take things a small step at a time, and be patient and kind to yourself. you are only human after all, it's okay to take things slow, to take a break and recharge. even right now, taking some deep breathes and grounding yourself - we can do a quick grounding exercise if you'd like, totally up to you, no pressure.

It was weird reading back what I've written @rav3n I'm not sure I am a fan of it.

I know I would chicken out and not say those things out loud, but at the same time I think she needs to know where I stand at the moment and what I am experiencing lately.

I just hope it doesn't lead to an inpatient stay.

I'm safe for tonight. Hubby is home so that will keep me safe.

I did reach out earlier today when I was home alone. That helped until he got home.

I'm listening to a podcast at the moment on Spotify which is getting me to do a body scan. It is helping in trying at least to keep me calm.

I think a lot of us have more baggage than the norm @creative_writer

Will bid you goodnight hon. Going to head to bed early.

I hope tomorrow goes well for you.

Really nice to catch up with you tonight.