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Hey @Snowie. Just popping in to say I’m thinking of you and hope you are ok

Concerned for you @Snowie as you've been quiet since the funeral...are you OK??

Sending 💙

Thanks for thinking of me @NatureLover @Captain24 @Eve7

The funeral went as well as it could go for a funeral. It was a nice send of with some laughs and tears. It was good to catch up with some of H's family. They are planning a get together in January. It is a very big family. H is one of over 50 cousin's on his Dad's side. His Dad is one of 12 children. So very big families.

My family seems very small in comparison.

I barely got through the gathering afterwards. I tried to do the right thing and mingle and talk.

I find being on here difficult at the moment. I feel like I have no answers for myself, so of course I have none for others either. My sh has increased, with too my thoughts. Struggling just with the loneliness of my situation. I also feel brushed aside from my psych for not making sure I got to see someone whilst she is gone. Overall I am struggling. It feel's much easier just sitting in the background atm.

@Snowie Thinking of you 💕

im glad that the funeral was ok as it could be and that you managed to get through it.
I remember when I was younger, on both sides of the family, a family member passing bought everyone together and regular gatherings occurred for a couple of months and then they died off…. Always felt that it was a shame that something like that happening was the only way the family got together. Wish that my family was closer… and maybe a bit bigger.

and @Snowie dear…. You don’t have to have answers. You can just be. And we will be here for you. I’m sorry your sh has got worse

🤗💕

It was nice to see his family @Bow Perhaps just under different circumstances next time.

we did regular catch ups before Covid, so hoping someone starts them up again.

I'm sorry you are struggling so much too. I have been reading your posts and know your ED is causing you lots of concerns. I do hope there are people out there that can help you out. It must be really hard to deal with.

I know I am not alone here but irl it feels very much so. I can't even email them as they are both overseas. Also I don't want to disturb them on holidays. It is just something I have to try and face each day.

Have you got any plans for today? I have to go get some fresh fruit, vegies and meat. We have nothing left for dinners.

Hi @Snowie. It’s good to see you.

Im glad you managed through the funeral and afterwards even though it was tough.

My dads side is huge too and it seem we all only catch up during difficult times. I did organise a reunion in October last year so that was at least nice. Im suppose to organise one for my generation but I'm struggling to do so.

Im sorry that your sh and thoughts are increasing. I hear how hard it is with everyone away. I don’t know if it helps but each day you get through is a day closer to them coming back. Have you made appointments ready for when they are back?

As for being on here. You need to do what is best for you. We are all here for you when you need us.

Thinking of you

Sending lots of love to you @Snowie

I don’t have much to offer today and feel everything I say is taken the wrong way so I’ll just sit in my room.

Sorry for being negative. 💜🤗

Thanks @Captain24 I hope you have a good day before you go back to work tomorrow.

@Eve7 sometimes the comfort of our room is the best place to be.

Went up the street, least my fridge doesn't look bare now and there is some fresh fruit for the kids.

Settled onto the couch now. Asking myself if it is too early for pj's yet!

Sending lots of love back to you both

Well done for doing the food shop @Snowie

I’m still in my pjs and likely to stay that way now so you’re more than welcome to join me!

Might join you then @Eve7

H is picking D up from work so don't have to go out again.

Saw a few people down the street that I knew. Had to do the small talk with them. So frustrating. but at least it is done.

Are you watching anything good on tv or doing something else?