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When is chat meant to be up again @moderator?

I’m sorry things aren’t going so well for you @Snowie I know you wouldn’t be keen to return to hospital but if it’s the only option to keep you safe then maybe it would help.

I saw pdoc twice today to finalise my departure tomorrow. She did stress that I don’t have to go and that I could return if necessary. She also pointed out that I have lived with chronic si for a long time and that, for the most part, I had resisted. She said it in a very affirming way that made me feel a bit better and I think that affirmation applies to you also.

pdoc then said before considering an attempt she would want me to consider rTMS and ECT again.

Life is hard but I’m going to make an effort once I get home.

Enough of me…sorry to use up your thread.

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Don't be sorry @Eve7 This thread is open for anybody to post.

I'm happy to hear you can go home tomorrow hon and you are going to make an effort. Not that you haven't been making an effort for a long time now. The pdoc sounds really nice and sounds concerned about your mental health. Yes you can always go back to hospital if needed.

As you know, it is very hard to live with si. Yes I guess we have resisted up until now, but it is hard to resist day in day out. It is so hard to control and takes up so much of my energy.

At least you have ECT or TMS to turn to if needed.

I really don't want to go down the hospital route unless my pdoc didn't give me a choice. It puts so much pressure on hubby and the kids. I don't want to put them through that. I really wish the chat was open, I don't find the other one's as helpful.

I’m sorry you can’t get onto the chat @Snowie . I agree it takes up so much energy day in, day out with si. I’m exhausted by it and often don’t feel safe.

I’ve met people in here with no family support, who came in here by public transport and who will have to go home the same way. I find that really sad. My family will probably want me to buy fish n chips tomorrow night but at least I won’t have to cook it lol.

Just wait and see what tomorrow brings 💜

Thinking of you both @Snowie @Eve7. Sitting with you and I’m here if you need.

I'm glad you have family support @Eve7 even if you have to buy them fish and chips!

It is exhausting hon, and no it doesn't always feel safe. I guess that is where our safety plans come into work. I do hope this hospital visit has helped you and it does get easier for you. You at least deserve that.

@Captain24 💕

Thinking of you today @Snowie. You are not alone. We are in this together

Thanks @Captain24 Sleep last night was very broken. Had a few things to do today but not sure if I will get to them.

I hope you day goes well today and you enjoy yourself.

is there anyone around

I’m here for a little while @Snowie