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Hey @Snowie hope you’re ok?? I read that you’re home alone with Izzy..hope it’s been peaceful.

I can go for a walk tomorrow for 30 minutes. I haven’t been outside since Tuesday! I’m going out in the hottest part of the day just to make the most of the sun.

Are you watching the Coronation tomorrow night? I’m not a big fan of Charles and Camilla but wouldn’t miss this momentous occasion.

Sleep well my friend. Xo

Up whilst the rest of the house is still asleep. Didn't sleep well again last night.

I think today will be a quiet day, no energy at all to do anything. Will watch the coronation this afternoon as it's something I probably never witness again.

I hope everyone has a nice day.

I’m sorry you didn’t sleep well and have no energy for anything @Snowie. Is it sunny? Can you sit in the sun and have a cuppa? Maybe that would be your pleasurable thing for the day?

Hello @Snowie , I’m sorry about your lack of sleep. That makes it hard.

I’ll be joining you for the coronation this evening. You can’t beat the Brits for pomp and splendour!

Went up the street to the supermarket and kmart with hubby and D. Finally made myself get out of the house.

Whilst I was there I saw my brother who I have no contact with. I had to make up an excuse as to why I couldn't keep walking that way to D. She asked me if I was avoiding someone and I just said no. Then went into kmart and who was in there too at the checkout counter when I was lining up.

I am already in a bad way but this has just messed me up even more. The tears won't stop and the flashbacks won't stop. I have had prn's and even those are not helping.

I am beyond help now, I just want to curl up and hide from the world.

Hey @Snowie ,

I'm so sorry to hear what happened. It sounds like you really made an effort to get out of the house, but it didn't go according to plan. You have been so brave in even getting out in the first place, and this should be acknowledged.

I read a quote today, and it was something like "Yes, it might go wrong....but what if it goes right?"

You can it a go, and that's what matters.

Please don't feel like you have failed in anyway.

Do you have anyone you can talk to right now?

@tyme I have hubby here but have just closed off to him. I don't want to talk to him I just can't do it

Its all too raw

I'm here if you want a chat. Or if journalling helps - you can just spill it all out into your journal. You deserve to be heard. I hear how hard it is right now. @Snowie

Hugs to you.

I cant journal, its too raw @tyme there is a good reason why I dont see him anymore and it all came flooding back.

too many thoughts in my head

Thinking of you @Snowie

Hi @tyme