My special place

I just don't see the point in it @amber22

The hospital are saying do it, the pdoc in the hospital is saying do it, but is that for their benefit. No ECT, no job. Then my psych is making me question it. It doesn't seem to be helping so why put my brain through that. How can an electrical current through my brain really help. Why bother trying anymore. Yes it is easy to say I have something to live for, but when does those thoughts that continue to pound my brain over ride everything else. It just doesn't make sense anymore.

I totally get where you're coming from @Snowie ❤️ Only do what you feel will help you and benefit you. If not, there are other ways of supports that you can contact. Is it something that you might want to/ can stop for a bit and go back to it if you feel the need to? How did it go with reaching out tonight?

@amber22 I really don't know if it is something I would go back to.

I haven't reached out tonight. Support is not something that I can get in a 20min phone call or chat. It is something I need all the time, yet it is something that is so far away. It feels like it is unreachable.

That's totally understandable @Snowie Maybe some time away might be best then if it's not making you feel too good. You will know within yourself what the best thing for you to do will be. Supporting you either way 💘

Would calling the SANE drop in line or talking through our webchat be something that could be helpful right now for you? Or perhaps talking to a loved one for some support?

Hey @Snowie I totally understand your pain and dilemma. Last time pdoc wanted me in hospital I said I’d get more benefit from a holiday in Fiji. Now she asks if I’ve made a booking yet.

Can you give yourself something to look forward to and book a week away at the snow?

We are still in this together hon.

💜💙💜

I really don’t have much for you @Snowie. Just know I’m with you and will be here to support you

@amber22

I'm heading to bed. I don't think staying up is going to do me any good, in fact I think it will make things worse.

That's okay, I hope you get some rest tonight and I'm here for you if you can't sleep, sending hugs @Snowie

Thanks @Captain24

@Eve7 a holiday to Fiji sounds like a good idea.

I can't look that far ahead.