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My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor15 Feb 2018, 9:51 am AEDT

My special place

Well yesterday certainly threw everything off track. But thanks to some very thoughtful and kind people I was able to get threw it and continue.

I cannot say a lot about what happened as I am sure you all understand but need this support in place.

Things WILL be ok, just a lot to work out.

Psych visit yesterday sorted out some of the things and more things will be happening early next week.

I am sorry if I put anyone through any despair, but unfortunately what happened yesterday morning had to be done.

Thank you all for your continued support.

@outlander@Sans911@Former-Member@Bubbles3@Bunniekins@Shaz51@CheerBear@Phoenix_Rising@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Queenie@Former-Member

Brain still not functioning anyone so sorry if I missed anyone

for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!

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In response to: My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor16 Mar 2023, 4:06 pm AEDT

Re: My special place

Thanks to everyone for the warm wishes.

Hopefully I have one more night to go.

I spoke to the nurse before about how happy I was to go home but how scared I am to go home too. I am scared of falling into my old ways, of my sh and si rising again, of ending up back in here and doing ECT weekly again and of this time not making it through the bad times.

I know that it is common to feel these feelings and to feel that terror again. But I just have to keep telling myself that I made it through last time so I can make it through again. That doesn't mean there won't be hard days ahead, it doesn't mean that my thoughts won't go askew, it doesn't mean that I won't question why I put all this work into my mental health. But at least I will have my pdoc, psych and gp all on the same page this time. At least I can reach out for help if I need it.

I hope my journey hasn't been for nothing, I hope that someone reading this might take some inspiration from it. If I can make it through then so can YOU. Sending love, warm wishes and strength to anyone reading this and to anyone facing those dark days ahead.