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My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor15 Feb 2018, 9:51 am AEDT

My special place

Well yesterday certainly threw everything off track. But thanks to some very thoughtful and kind people I was able to get threw it and continue.

I cannot say a lot about what happened as I am sure you all understand but need this support in place.

Things WILL be ok, just a lot to work out.

Psych visit yesterday sorted out some of the things and more things will be happening early next week.

I am sorry if I put anyone through any despair, but unfortunately what happened yesterday morning had to be done.

Thank you all for your continued support.

@outlander@Sans911@Former-Member@Bubbles3@Bunniekins@Shaz51@CheerBear@Phoenix_Rising@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Queenie@Former-Member

Brain still not functioning anyone so sorry if I missed anyone

for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!

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creative_writerSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 5:17 pm AEDT

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@Snowie, it is powerful. The thing about self-worth it can take time build and I know you can do it. I feel a good place to start is by slowly recognising your strengths and learning about yourself outside of your mental illness and trauma. You define yourself. Narratives can be changed. I am on the journey of building my self-worth too. Not so good experiences in life can really shattered self worth in a heartbeat, but humans are resilient.
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Eve7Senior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 5:17 pm AEDT

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Hello @Snowie I was up at stupid o’clock to take gs2 to a trail run and then breakfast afterwards and being a tourist town food was more expensive so gs2 ordered the big breakfast! We stopped at a fudge shop which advertised “Australia’s best fudge’ and it was delicious. The petrol light came on and Petrol was a whopping $2.05 so I just bought $20 worth enough to come down the mountain…Tesla is very tempting!

Now I’m trying to finish an assignment before Monday…haven’t stopped to think today! Oh, I lost my good drink bottle 😢

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SnowieSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 5:26 pm AEDT

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Sounds like it has been a really busy day for you @Eve7

Sorry about your favourite drinking bottle. I actually brought a new one to try and get myself to drink more water. Very good at drinking coffee but not water!

I hope you can continue to find your self worth @creative_writer We are resilient as humans, however there is only so much we can take. I feel like I am at the breaking point.

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creative_writerSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 5:33 pm AEDT

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@Eve7, I hope your assignment goes okay. Losing your good old drink bottle doesn’t sound so nice. One can grow to attached to simple everyday items.

@Snowie, I am trying. I mean, I have to find it eventually, right? I’m sorry you feel like you are at breaking point. Living on the edge is tricky. I feel like even healing itself can be hard and painful at times. I processed something in my last psych appointment and was so distraught afterwards. It’s crazy the amount of things we keep within us and we don’t even realise. It’s a rough road, but you are worth every bit of the fight.

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SnowieSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 5:45 pm AEDT

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@creative_writer I think I keep things inside me to protect others and mostly to protect myself.

I don't think it is working well. The things I have opened up to my psych have been devastating. I do wonder if it is worth it. But lately they feel like poison inside of me. I try to stop it but it doesn't want to stop, it doesn't want to go away. The poison consumes me in every way.

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creative_writerSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 5:56 pm AEDT

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@Snowie, I feel like keeping stuff inside doesn’t help. I feel like emotional suppression and repression contributed to my mood disorder relapse. I think it’s about finding someone safe you can talk. Mental health professionals like psychs are trained for this. Opening up does hurt, but you can take it at your own pace, so that it’s more manageable.

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SnowieSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 6:04 pm AEDT

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@creative_writer I hope you have that person that is safe for you. That you can open up too and start along this long journey of recovery. You certainly deserve it.

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creative_writerSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 6:13 pm AEDT

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@Snowie, I don’t fully feel safe with anyone, including my psych. But it is easier to talk to my psych about things. I hope you have someone you can open up to, even if it’s your psych. You deserve to heal and recover too 💖

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SnowieSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 6:18 pm AEDT

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I do have a psych @creative_writer I don't feel completely safe with her either. It is a relationship which I think is in progress. She is slowly gaining my trust. I think it is hard because trusting people is such a hard thing to do especially with our history.

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creative_writerSenior Contributor04 Feb 2023, 6:43 pm AEDT

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@Snowie. Totally relate with trust Sometimes I wish I could just breakdown and be fully vulnerable with someone. I just feel too scared. Do take your time, you really do need to be ready.

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