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Ended up going to a friends house yesterday afternoon for a swim and dinner. The pool was really cooling as it was so hot yesterday. Made for actually a nice evening. Didn't stay overly late as everyone except me was drinking and had to pick up D from work.

Already dropped her off at work again today and went up the supermarket.

D is getting so much work whilst on holidays. She is saving lots of money to buy a car when she turns 18 which is only 8 months away.

Spoke to hubby about hospital again. He said he will support me if I choose to go in. Not happy about it however. I told him I don't have much choice since my pdoc is saying it is the only way I can change my meds. Maybe it is for the best if I am in a safe environment. I don't trust my mind and thoughts, especially if my pdoc is right and I will go down before I can come back up again.

I hope that you can get in soon @Snowie and the whole process is not too bad, I know med changes can be rough on us.

thinking of you 💕

Thanks @Bow

Not looking forward to it but know it needs to be done. I have been on this particular med for close to four years now so it needs to be changed.

Hopefully will speak to pdoc this week and we can start all the paperwork.

@Snowie I guess with it being a planned admission, you can be prepared, which will be much nicer. You can take in what you need to get through your admission and stay comfortable.

I’ve not really had a planned admission before and it’s always hard telling mum what I want her to bring in for me, describing things, trying to tell her where everything is.

do you like paint by numbers? Or that diamond art? Perhaps you could buy one to take in. A book? (Last time

i was in hospital I read a book called ‘the girl who fell from the sky’. I’ve followed the author on Instagram for years, she had a sky diving accident in Switzerland and it’s about her recovery and life since. It was really easy reading (she didn’t use alot of big words!) lighthearted and enjoyable… I was sad when I finished it!)

💕

It is easier with a planned admission @Bow

I hate getting hubby to get what I need. It is better when I can plan it myself.

I am not really into art at all but am into reading. I do like autobiographies and have quite a few at home that I haven't read yet, so will take them in with me. I will also get some puzzle books to take in as I like them too.

I'm sorry you are struggling hon, am here for you too.

Hello @Snowie I’m glad you had a nice afternoon at your friend’s yesterday. It’s good to have a friend with a pool in this type of weather. You’re welcome at mine anytime lol but I can’t tell you where I live.

You have a good hubby who wants to support you get well.

There is an event on here today that people who witnessed last week’s accident have been encouraged to attend. I’m not going as I’m not ready to go near that in my head.

Ive slept most of the weekend thanks to prn. I did try a couple of activities to distract .

sending lots of love to you and @Bow

Hi all

Spoke to my psychiatrist this morning. He has completed all the paperwork for the hospital admission. Just have to get approval now from work cover and all should be right to go.

He has requested 3 weeks which I hope I don't have to use it all. I guess it depends on how long the med change takes.

I finally see my psychologist tomorrow after over 5 long weeks of waiting. I don't think an hour will be long enough, I have a lot to go through. I am looking forward to the appointment but at the same time not wanting to open up any can of worms. I guess I will just see how I go.

Oh @Snowie I'm glad to hear you'll be getting the support you need. Really good and I'm sure this is the right path to take.

Let us know how appt tomorrow goes.

Sending big warm wishes

Hanami

I hope so @hanami

Now I have to somehow tell my kids what is happening and why I have to go in. It is hard when kids are involved. I don't want to lie to them but I want to protect them too.

I hope you have had a nice day.