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I’m sorry that you’re unwell @Snowie but pleased it’s not COVID.

The sun has just come out here after raining all day but too late to hang out my washing as I’d put it through the dryer.

It’s been ok here with family the past few days and my sister’s h is an absolute gem around the house with all he does for our mother. I don’t think, when they took her in 3 years ago, they thought she’d still be alive. Shows how good her care is,

I did some sh recently too that looks infected but I have some cream I’m applying so hope that does the trick. I can understand you not wanting to see another Dr as I wouldn’t either.

Lots of love @Snowie

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I am glad your mum is getting looked after well @Eve7 hopefully that is a weight of your shoulders too. Sounds like you have had lots of rain where you are at the moment. Hopefully you get to see some sunshine tomorrow.

I hope the cream helps with your sh hon. I wouldn't go see another doctor, it would just be too hard to explain everything, thanks for understanding 💗💗

I’m hoping for a dry day tomorrow as I’m meeting someone in the afternoon (a girl I used to coach who’s here at Uni) and I don’t fancy driving in the rain @Snowie

I’m grateful that you understand me too. It’s not easy to open up about our private struggles with strangers.

After eating French, Italian, Chinese and Indian meals the past few days BIL has just announced tonight’s meal will be bangers and mash!! What are you having?

Any plans for the rest of the week?

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I hope you have a nice time meeting up with this person @Eve7 Hopefully the rain stays away for your catchup.

No it is not easy to open up to people. I don't really tell anyone in my life about my sh except for my supports. Even H doesn't know the extent of it. All he does is really control my meds but unfortunately that doesn't stop me from the sh. I am trying to keep occupied tonight so I don't do it again, my mind has already gone there but hoping I can control things.

Sounds like you have been well fed the last few days and time off from cooking too!! I hope you enjoy dinner tonight. We are just having chicken and salad, nice and easy tonight. Not sure if I will eat or not, have no appetite the last few days. Might just have ice-cream!

Tomorrow I am meant to be getting my hair coloured. Get rid of the greys!! Other than that it is just a quiet week for me. Have you got much on?

Not much on tomorrow @Snowie apart from a quick catch up with my former squad member then I have some competing again over the next couple of days.

currently watching the budget ho hum

Sleep well my friend 💜

I hope all goes well for you @Eve7 with your athletes competing. Whatever the outcome you have done and continue to do such wonderful things for them. I hope they help you in many ways too.

Have taken my meds some extra for tonight, so am hoping that helps me sleep. My mind is my worse enemy at the moment between stewing over what my psych said to me today and the plans my brain is making for me.

Please look afterself and have a nice catch up tomorrow. You are super important and deserve to be supported in so many different ways. Please take care of you. I love you💗

We’re aiming for pbs at these championships @Snowie and so far 4 have achieved that with only 2 left to compete so I’m a happy coach.

I’m attending some coach education this week which will be the first I’ve attended in over 2 years. I’m a bit nervous because I don’t know what people know about my mental health but I’ll just wear my “ big girl pants”.

Time to sleep…I’ve been taking my meds really late and have slept late the past 2 days but need to get back to earlier nights.

Love you too hon 💜💜💜

Oh gosh @Snowie , I hadn't reralised your critical and hurtful mother actually lived with you!!! 😮

Sending hugs 💙

Hugs to you too @Eve7 💛🌞

I'm sorry that I haven't been around much. Have come down with an infection that my loving H and S passed onto me. Sharing is caring I guess 🤦‍♀️

We have all done numerous covid test tests and have all been negative. Am hoping no one else gets it. Spent some of the day today and probably all of tomorrow in bed. I recorded Shane Warne's memorial service so if I can't sleep tomorrow at least I will have something to watch. The normal thoughts have crept in. If I was stronger I wouldn't have gotten sick, this is my undoing. It has certainly increased my sh and the low self worth I have for myself. Normal meds and pain meds taken. Hopefully something works.

Thanks who has read my essay. Too tired to tag and don't want to forget anyone.

Love to you are, look after each and and God bless