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I am sorry you’ve been having such a hard time @Snowie . We all do silly things at times so please be kind to yourself and I hope your appointment is ok tomorrow. I’m always here for you if you want to chat.

I’m on leave…and feeling relaxed already. I’ve seen pdoc weekly for the past month which had been good but after next week she’s going to be away for over 2 months.

I’m going to visit Mum in a couple of weeks then I have ankle. surgery booked for the end of next month. I might return to work, I might not End of an era

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Thanks @Eve7

Glad to hear you are on leave. Hopefully that makes things a little easier for you, with the stress of not having to worry about work.

That is a long time for your pdoc to go away for. Hopefully you have some other supports in place that can help you through that time. Hoping also your visit with your mum goes well.

I am trying not to blame myself but it is hard. We judge ourselves too harshly at times. No doubt my psych will want to know what I did. I have slept most of today away with no motivation to do anything.

@Snowie 💕

We are harsh on ourselves @Snowie and it’s really not justified as the shame just sends us around to do it again.

I’m so glad to be on leave and it was a stupid move to return when I did. Anyway I’m not there now and I won’t be returning anytime soon.

I hope you can sleep well tonight 💙💛💙

Thanks @Eve7 @Bow

Have taken my meds early so hoping I will be asleep soon.

Take care both of you 💜💜

I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow @Snowie

and you too @Bow

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Thanks @Eve7 thought I would be asleep by now but my meds are not helping. I just don't want to deal with reality at all tonight. Things are just getting more difficult.

I am meant to drive to get to psych tomorrow. Am scared to do so but got no one to take me.

Hope is such a scary word. Hope vanishes just when it is needed.

Sorry your meds haven’t worked yet @Snowie

Do you need to drive far? I’ll ride with you in your pocket and keep you safe.

Sometimes hope is all we have and we only need a little bit to get through the next moment.

It is about at 40min drive @Eve7 as long as there isn't much traffic. If I tell her my thoughts Im not sure what will happen.

Maybe I should just cancel it and then I won't have to deal with them

Hi @Snowie , I hope you can get to your psych OK today and that it goes well for you...

Hi @Eve7 , happy for you that you're on extended leave now 🙂

Sending hugs to you both.