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As i work 4 the goverment my slow return 2 work is that as i am a cleaner at a school & do split shifts i will start on afternoon shifts 4 2 to 3 days a week and move it up to 5 afternoons a week then try & do Morning Shifts where i start at 5am which is really hard Great working 4 the Gov makes my life so easy

Just started with a Personal Trainer she works me out so hard i luv it

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Yes i do after a work out at the gym i feel great but about 3 hours after i start 2 get down my Doctor said i should keep it it going by going & having coffee with my friend just 2 keep the good feeling going plus not 2 feel bad about being happy something i have not felt 4 years

Hi Jamc,

I can totally relate to what you're saying.

For me it's like no matter how hard I try or despite doing all the 'right' things I still, eventually, end up 'down'.

My psych suggested to me this week that I need to try and be more assertive because I try to make other people happy all the time so I don't have to deal with conflict. This, to the detriment of my own needs/wants. Perhaps he's right and could be the reason I end up 'down' because I'm always putting others first.

Also, I think the more you try and the more effort you make to 'fix' yourself, the more disappointing it is when it doesn't seem to work.

Cherpieus

I totally agree.

I personally can be too hard on myself and expect perfection. I am really feeling up at the moment as I am eating healthy and exercising. I'm also gearing myself up to get in the right head space to kick smoking. I know it will be tough but I'm going to forgive myself if I lapse and not beat myself up.

Keep going Jamc.

Thats what my Psychologist said i am how do u say it just putting self doubts in my head and just stuffing it up aven though i know going 2 gym etc is good 4 me

As i have said my former posts on this topic have helped great why if i go to gym feel great after then crash what is going on plus i would luv 2 have someone 2 talk to as i live by myself with no family support

Just what my Psysh Said i need to stop letting people dominate me ans stop saying yes sir to what they say

Alright i build my self up get feeling really good by going to gym etc. but then i will Sabotage myself yhen beat myself up over it 4 months