Depression Dementia Dad

Visited dad, took him Bonanza DVD & watched it with him on my laptop. Loves his Westerns. Said he was anxious 'cause nobody visited 2days, When Bro4 told me he hadn't been IP since he yelled at staff, 4 days ago, thought I'd better go. At least this time he didn't have his bags packed to go home, or chip me for everything. Cleaned up his dresser etc

People presume the NCAT tribunal decision not granting me guardianship is about something I did wrong... even silence here on the matter is deafening, but there are many other factors weighing their decision. I'm so tired of defending myself. Where's these backstabbing siblings for dad now? They don't visit. Poor dad. Oh well.

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope, and @Former-Member. I am not good at asking for help. The current situation is a prime example of why. Decision makers haven't even met dad let alone have the time of day for me. I have to let go. Next time he presses to go home I will tell him that I am sick and need an operation and will be unable to help him at home (and of cause there's nobody else), he is 84. The nurse had 'flippant' / dismissive attitude twd me last night. Complained about him not having pj's (said he had nothing), with her language barrier it took me a while to explain to her "at home dad never wears PJ's, he wears singlet & boxers to bed" and showed her the x5 in his drawer... She also mocked his orthotic boots deeming joggers better (which I quietly think so re the weight of the boots and bought in his fav old light weight joggers to see if he has less falls in them). He has bedsore back again, this is probably because they are not using the barrier cream he came in with and because the force him to sit by the nurses station, re high falls risk, but forget to put his special dva OT pressure area cusion from G s room 😞 I tried to explain this but 'attitude nurse' started talking about his pressure sore dressing. They have no idea what dads home nurses & I went through for months trying to get on top of his skin integrity breakdown this year. They just assume ignorance. I have little tolerance for such unprofessionalism, and think my tongue ble#ds from bighting it. Ha, they have also neglected to take his pDentures out at might do they have become embedded in gum overgrowth again and needs to go to dentist, a service the facility don't provide. Bro4, 3, 2 & invisible sis don't know this stuff. Poor dad. Oh well. Watching a Western was relaxing for both of us last H fht. Dad has lost the art of conversation as such (stutters & mixes up words), leans heavily on emotions & visuals. Bro4 doesn't 'get' this, and tells him to tell everyone he wants to go home, to fight for his s rights... It upsets him cause poor dad simply can't. Men in my family are hopeless with this stuff. It hurts. I find hro3&4 intimidating andvknow them being aroundvmum & dad a lot drove away the grankids & sis. Pitty they've put me in the same bundle. I'm tired.

F&H, should I go buy small kit of acrylic paints? And sketch book. Left my art starter kit up north grr, in the rush to go, SI & hopelessness. My girl loved art, maybe I can do it for her.

@Former-Member 💖

@Owlunar (above)