Re: Update and safety plan thread.

Hi @Lemonjuice. Just wondering if you've ever tried some techniques to try not to self harm - when the urge is so high.
Just a few things to maube give a try, today or for future reference.
* Holding a handful of ice cubes in your hands
* Dunking your whole head into a basin of cold water - or your whole body (quickly) into a cold shower
* Drawing on your body what the SH would look like - eg use a red texta
* Pinching yourself
You may have tried these things before. Maybe they worked. Maybe they didn't. But maybe they might work tonight and lesson your urge.
Just a thought.

Thanks @SleepyPanda.

@utopia It's a little more complicated than that. I don't have any urge to self-harm or suicide...although I think it makes sense sometimes. I'm kind of the hostage of someone, an alter, who is demanding a ransom for not going along with the suicide. They have the urge, not me. I know, it sounds nuts. It's not even suicide really, they want to destroy me, they want to harm me. I just have to do what they say and if I don't it rages against me, so it's easier to give in sometimes. I take the body where they need it to be and pull away enough for them to cause harm. All I can do is try to manipulate the situation...like filling up Wednesday with appointments or hinting to someone that I need help, or sometimes I and a couple of others team up inside to block it from surfacing. Not that you or anyone would know from meeting me cause I look and sound very ordinary, normal, nice...and I am...I just have this crap going on inside.

Sorry for jumping in, but reading your post gave me the shivers @Lemonjuice it's like I could of written the above myself.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way and going through this. Is there anything we can do to help?

@Former-Member Just being on this these threads has helped so please do jump in and especially if you are going through the same.

Hi @Lemonjuice

I understand, DID is very complicated. I am signing off now, I will be back on Wednesday.

Keep safe

SP

@Lemonjuice. Of course you are normal, nice and ordinary. So am I. We just happen to live with MI. That's all.
Although I have to say, that it must take a huge amount of energy and effort to keep things as under control as you can.
@Maggie I believe has a similar diagnosis. Hope it's okay to tag you here Maggie.
You might benefit from talking with each other and sharing experiences and tools you have.

@utopia that would be good. Thanks. Going to sleep now. Talk tomorrow.

@Maggie Thanks! Everyone is so nice to me. I'm ok going to sleep
. Like to get to know you tomorrow.