Just so lost

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum, am actually new to this whole online support thing too. So bare with me if I appear like I have no idea what I am doing!

To sum up my situatuation - here goes ... Have recently lost my job due to a workers compensation claim that my employer thinks is a fraudulent claim, but of course it wasnt fraud. Therefore I am injured and unable to work. I am taking this employer to court and fighting this but its not looking good.

My partner of 5 years has been rather uncomunicative with me for some time, I know something is wrong with him by the way he has been pulling away but when I ask him, he just sits there. I know he's been depressed for a very long time (undiagnosed, although I do know the signs, I've been there too). I hoped that I could be a good example for him. Now, I'm dealing with depression myself. And he's been acting quite narcissistic lately and seems to have no concern for me and my wellbeing. (And doesnt see an issue in that). He moved out 4 days ago, my choice. His anger has been completely off the charts for about the past year - he also doesnt see that either.

We argued 3 days ago, and that pushed me over the edge, I was ready to end my life. I'm only just holding it together now, I live alone but have 2 cats that are dependant on me. I DO know that I'd be harming them if I did something to myself. But I'm destraught that my partner doesnt seem to care that much about me/our situation. I've looked after him physically (after serious life changing surgery in past 2 years) and mentally for past 5 years, he also doesnt seem to see that either.

He is so messed up and it's made me messed up.....