Supporting my wife who lives with Borderline Personality Disorder while maintaining self care.

@Former-Member darling has a GP app this week. I have requested she discuss an new pdoc referral. She has not seen pdoc for a while because I have not made one for her. I have been trying to encourage more self care and responsibilitiy. Contemplating seeing if she will be amiable to me attending the *GP app with her because she struggles to articulate how she is actually feeling.. (I can relate to that).

Meds remain locked away but I will be more diligent with what I do with the key. (Keep it on me). Even when things are well I don't have the emotional strength to leave them out.

At this morning's ride there were a number of people wearing 'in memory of' shirts.

Discovered some emotions are still very close to the surface 😥

@Determined

I am of the view that if on psych drugs (particularly the heavy duty ones) and even with shared care, due to the cyclical nature of MI that 6 monthly reviews are desirable. I still write my observations down - taking notes at present as Mr Darcy not doing so well with latest med change. Thinking we might need an earlier appt for him.

@Former-Member, @Determined

that is what our chemist said to me the other day " is mr shaz still on these meds"!!!

i said yes

@Determined, saw this and thought of you. Thinking of you in general.

Thanks @Smc

Those measures work for me 😁

Thinking of you and family also.

How are your crew coping @Determined

Holding together so far @Former-Member

Not sure how long that will last though.

Children nagging not helping an already on edge darling.

My being able to work at home is helping however. Juat sitting near me = darling not feeling as much like she has been left to it. (With the children) and not feeling like she is left at home while I am 'out having a good time'

Had a first meeting with a new counsellor today. (Via phone unfortunatly).

I am confident that this lady seems a good fit. Easy to talk to and enquiring what my goals are rather than jumpimg into the pre recorded mindfulness message.

Added bonus (feel kind of bad calling it that) is that counsellor has close family contact with BPD so a greater emotional understanding from a loved ones point if view.

Kind of looking forward to rather than dreading the next meeting now. Have a general direction plotted and I for the first time have an opportunity to write down some key points that I want to address for some clearer direction.

Almost every attempt at counselling so far for me has been during a time of crisis with darling so all focus has been on how I can support family and others rather than dealing with legacy issues for myself. (Out of necessity based on conditions at that time). Different approach this time. And some one who is happy with that different approach.

And that is not ment to take away at all from the work of previous counsellors. Each experience has been valued at the time.