Not doing well.

Hey @Lemonjuice, emotions are hard...it is nice to hear that you managed some shopping despite how you were feeling. Hope you find a good movie.

Must be tricky wanting to go to uni and enjoying but having your Mum not want you to go. That's good that you are able to do it part-time.

Hope that headaches eases and you have a restful night.

Take care...

Hi everyone, I am doing better today. Last night at 3am, I found my niece very upset because she has been betrayed by a couple of her friends and had to end the relationships. She's ok now...it was a year in coming...long talk and put her to bed.


But then I started to think about what would have happened if I wasn't there. I had planned on ending things next week but now I can't do it. I thought about what it would mean to her for me to suicide a week after losing two of her lifelong friends. I can't do that to her. I have to fight the monsters inside my head. I don't want to, I still want to self-harm and suicide but I can't. I'm relieved and p'd off about it.