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Crying

MoonGalSenior Contributor03 Nov 2015, 11:32 am AEDT

Crying

Some days, like today. Even though I am content, safe, have some things to do. Have dog-company. Suddenly I find myself tearing up. I am listening to the most beautiful classical music - and just browsing forums and fb. And then wham. Knot in the chest, tight in the throat, tears in the eyes.

I wonder - should I go with this. Just feel it. Not run and hide from it? I tend to slam on the brakes. It's such a fine line, actually allowing myself to feel my feelings and worrying that if I do I will be swamped by the tsunami in here.

Do others have these feelings arising? I cry just about every day, even when i am not in a depressive state. Just cry I just want to cry for the world, for myself, for all the pain of everyone.... <sigh>

Time to do the dishes and sing I think.

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In response to: Crying

AppleblossomSenior Contributor06 Nov 2015, 2:51 pm AEDT

Re: Crying

The red puffy eye effect has been with me for a long time ... since I started crying at around 15. I dont remember crying much before that ... maybe the time they ripped me off mum and took me into the welfare ... thats all... mostly I am just quiet. When my dad died I didnt go to the funeral as they all seemed too happy and it was more of a party and none of them had ever show real care of my father so I refused to go. The a few years later I teared up at the funeral of the father we went to with the school to stand by a class mate. I dont know if my loss was ever acknowledged at school ... anyway ... they were early triggers of tears.

Then in at about 23 I learned in therapy .. there was a school of thought that valued the expression of tears ...

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