tiredgirlNew Contributor
i don't know what is happening right now
I don't think my perception is grounded in reality at this moment. I keep seeing gigantic flies and dead fish all around me and I have been lying in bed for many hours and I keep seeing myself get up and walk to the door even though I am pretty sure I am still in bed. I see someone in the room but I think I am the only person in the room. I can hear people in the room and feel things on my body (maybe the flies)
This has only ever happened when I am going up/coming down from a manic episode so i can only suppose i may be going up since I've been very depressed before this evening. I dont like this and I want it to stop but I am not sleeping despite taking my usual medications which help me sleep. So I dont know how to make it stop. Maybe i should take more medications to sleep but I dont know if it will work. I want this to stop night now.