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Turtle check-in station

Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor11 Jan 2018, 9:40 pm AEDT

Turtle check-in station

Psssssst @Former-Member,

Look, this is me being super good and following @NikNik's instructions to keep threads on track (notice I tagged NikNik so that she won't miss this moment of my awesomeness ). Based on NikNik's instructions, I figured maybe we need a new space for checking in.

I am FINALLY feeling brighter after having my second session with TTT today. It is SUCH a relief to finally have connected with someone who I feel super safe with. It is tricky at the moment because we are in that super early stage where she knows nothing about me and thus I have to go through the whole looooooooong story all over again. However, assuming she doesn't get squashed by a bus or something, I can see that in time she will be able to help me unmuddle my muddle a bit.

It is super hard starting over. She knows so little about me at the moment and yet already she is being brutally honest about the fact that it is going to take quite a bit of time to unmuddle the muddle. I am a bit scared that as the story comes out more, we are going to shift from "this is going to take quite some time" to "I'm sorry Phoenix_Rising, but some of this is simply never going to be fixed." Sigh...

Anyway, I am so very very glad I found TTT. How are you and Mr Darcy going at the moment? Is it super hot in your part of the world. It has cooled down here in Sydney now. The other day it reached 47 degrees at my place which is quite absurd. Happily I have airconditioning so S and I just hid in the house all day.

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DeterminedSenior Contributor17 Jan 2018, 3:29 pm AEDT

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Hi @Phoenix_Rising how are things for you today,

Things are ok here, I had a 5 hour shift at work (eneded up working 6) for the first time in over 2 months, I enjoyed it but my darling really struggled being home alone with the children 😕 , she was ok by the time I got home thanks to some prn and little guy down for a sleep.

Im a little anxious about hoa things will go when I am back at uni,

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Unknown userMember19 Jan 2018, 8:08 pm AEDT

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@Phoenix_Rising

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor19 Jan 2018, 8:17 pm AEDT

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That's about it this week @Former-Member! I am ultra struggling and thus FF was totally beyond me yet again tonight. In bed now, will be asleep soon.

How are you and Mr D?

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Unknown userMember19 Jan 2018, 8:29 pm AEDT

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@Phoenix_Rising
Sleep tight little turtle

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DeterminedSenior Contributor20 Jan 2018, 4:30 pm AEDT

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Gey @pheonix_rising
Trust things are improving for you and your day is going ok

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DeterminedSenior Contributor20 Jan 2018, 4:31 pm AEDT

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Hey @Phoenix_Rising re above

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DeterminedSenior Contributor20 Jan 2018, 4:33 pm AEDT

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LoL got it that time, silly phone 😀

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor20 Jan 2018, 9:00 pm AEDT

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@Determined wrote:
LoL got it that time, silly phone 😀

That's right @Determined, blame the phone.

I'm not sure if you were out on the ocean yesterday (i.e. reading the Riding a Wave thread). Things are very very tricky at the moment. However, I am feeling better since my GP validated how totally not ok my current situation is, and also because TTT is able to see me on Monday.

It's HARD, @Determined. It's so so SO hard. I truly have no sense at all of being demanding or manipulative or any of those other words that are used to describe those of us with BPD so often. I am simply trying to a) stay alive and b) create a life worth living. I really and truly don't mean to make life miserable for anyone foolish enough to come near me here in the real world.

How are you and your darling going now? Still ok-ish? Hopefully at least ok-ish, but ideally better than ok-ish. I think it is amazing how much love you show for your darling.

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DeterminedSenior Contributor20 Jan 2018, 10:00 pm AEDT

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Sorry things seem a little rough for you at the moment @Phoenix_Rising, I have not actually seen your other thread but will check it out. It is good to hear you have some support from your gp and councillor that can make a world of difference, well it does in our world at least.

We are still doing ok here, we had our first visit with a couples councillor yesterday, (also a psychologist), she connected with my darling immediately having a close family connection with bpd. Darling usually on the defensive due to a general lack of understanding for BPD (Im sure you get that). She also has a deeper understanding of my challenges in a support role.

I am feeling hopeful that she can make a big difference in my darlings life. Some hard work ahead but my darling is totally worth it.

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor20 Jan 2018, 10:04 pm AEDT

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@Determined I think I can actually see the love that you have for your darling leaking through the screen of my laptop!!! She is truly blessed to have you.

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