rough time

Have a look back on some of the stuff I've sent you, or wherever you've kept it @outlander

Is there anything you want to do with me? Have you tried grounding, square breathing, 5senses? I understand you've done these before, and they may only help for a little while, but better to have a little relief than none.

What about HC or SCBS? I'm just throwing some things out there to try to help.

Regardless, I'm right here beside you. I see your struggles, and you can lean on your Big Sis until you come out the other side of this.

You're never a burden to me @outlander

But I understand how and why you think that way. And you're putting in time for self care so well done.

It sounds like like lots of rumination or overthinking going on in that head of yours. Perhaps could you see everything that is going through your head as thoughts on clouds passing by, or leaves on a stream.

It's your thoughts that are negative lil Sis, not you. Remember that. Your thoughts are not you. You aren't defined by your thoughts. Sometimes we just get on a roundabout of negative thoughts and find it hard to get off.

It's not stupid to not know what to say on the helplines. Obviously you're so overwhelmed you don't know where to start.

But guess what? You're talking to me right, and this last post of yours is a lot longer than the others. It if helps to talk to me, then do so @outlander

Something special for my lil Sis

@outlander

It's really hard to counter those negative emotions isn't it? They go on and on and on. Drowning out all sense and other thoughts. But you know this isn't you. This is your negative thoughts. And they are lying to you.

Because you know deep down your definitely not a burden. You do deserve support as much as anyone else. And you have my support and others anytime you need it. I'm always here for you, because I care about you, I care what happens to you. In the last year that I've known you, you've brought something special into my life. Knowing you has helped immensely in saving my life. I mean that. There's so much love, tenderness and care that you give to me and others. You are incredibly special to me, and I know one day, all that compassion, care and kindness will serve you well in whatever employment you take up. People will be better off for knowing you.

You know despite the negative thoughts telling you otherwise, being here is a good thing, it's distracting for you, here you are supported and cared about.

Just let's go hour by hour for now. You're doing great right now staying here. I'm glad you're here.

The pic of Jasper with his leg underneath him was last night. He was totally out to out, as he is now, but not in same position. But he laid like that for ages, then rolled a little, and it moved but wasn't out. He didn't seem phased at all.

Mr A went to the vet today for a check up. I took him to a student clinic at a Tafe college. It was about half the price of a normal vet, but they were very thorough. I have to try to get a wee sample off him. Hmmm, could be interesting. I'll take Jasper in a few weeks. They've both been pretty well behaved of late. It's good for me.

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Hello @Teej

Hi @outlander.

I know what it feels like when you are overwhelmed and don’t even know why.

This won’t help get through tonight but it might help later. I’ve done a few in the last few weeks and it’s helped heaps. It’s kind of like journaling but with way less emotion because you do it quickly. It’s helped me to see where all the overwhelming parts are and then you get a chance to prioritise and work on them. I’ve mostly been doing it for appointments but it’s helped just being able to see a bit more clearly. I’m not sure when your headspace appointment is but it might help you talk about things.

Today I was getting really stressed about things and I made one to take to my psych appointment next week. It helped to dump everything in an easy way. Now I have something to talk through. I don’t tend to get as caught up with things doing it this way and it helps me work out what is really causing my distress and stress. I hope this helps.

thinking of you and hoping you get through tonight ok 💜🤗