outlanderSenior Contributor
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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Hi lil Sis, I've had a busyish morning. The walk was really lovely, it wasn't too cold, and peopke walked with no flame candles quietly talking to each other. There were many tears. I got talking to an older couple who lost their son to suicide 9 years ago. He was 22. Going to these things is I guess like going to AA. It sobers you up to think my mother, my sister could be walking instead of me. My pyschologist reminded me the other week how very, very close I had been to not being here. It doesn't scare me about that, but I realise how permanent things can be. I saw the chair I the network I just left having coffee and muffins with friends. She said a brief hello and carried on. There will be many things I will see her at. I wasn't triggered. Just sad.
I sold a massive wardrobe in my guest bedroom this morning, and the buyer was shocked at the true size of it. They had to return for one peice.
Then I went food shopping, and took my guest with me. I prepared and put on a casserole for tommorrow night, and resting with a cup of tea.
I was going to an exhibition about May Gibbs, but I've bombed out. It's days like today I realise even though I'm getting better, I have still got significant lack of energy to carry me through a full day.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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hi sis, @Sans911
your walk sounds lovley. it does give different perspectives doesnt it. i am glad your still here but doesnt mean you cant struggle either. we all just have to take things one day at a time.
your wardrobe sounds massive! was it like one of those 3 piece ones? my nan/pop has one of those where wach side has a wardrobe and in the middle was a mirror with drawers under the mirror.
even superwoman has her limits y'know 😉
i had some thinking time today too and made a positive decision- for once lol.
your walk sounds lovley. it does give different perspectives doesnt it. i am glad your still here but doesnt mean you cant struggle either. we all just have to take things one day at a time.
your wardrobe sounds massive! was it like one of those 3 piece ones? my nan/pop has one of those where wach side has a wardrobe and in the middle was a mirror with drawers under the mirror.
even superwoman has her limits y'know 😉
i had some thinking time today too and made a positive decision- for once lol.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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It was exactly like that @outlander but also with cupboard space above.
What is your positive decision?
What is your positive decision?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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lol yep pops has the same thing @Sans911 it is rather big, im not even sure how they got it in here!
i have been speaking to a careers advisor through headspace the past 3 weeks (they have a counselling section and then the study support section) and we have been speaking about studying, and what i might like to do. i also found out depending on the price of the course they will pay for it. so this morning when i spoke to her, she said that i got accepted into them paying for my course if i chose to go ahead with studying.
i have decided to go ahead with studies, and have started the enrollment process through TAFE. i wasnt going to, i was going to wait but i find i am stuck in this rut of i am not actually doing anything to improve my future and that is starting to get to me. the more i think about it and my current situation the more suicidal i become so im hoping that this will help me get through abit more of the sticky stuff. Kind of like having a goal to work towards and getting a certificate at the end so its not 'pointless' either. can start putting some of my brain to good use. I worry itll trigger you so i wont say which course it is unless your ok.
i have been speaking to a careers advisor through headspace the past 3 weeks (they have a counselling section and then the study support section) and we have been speaking about studying, and what i might like to do. i also found out depending on the price of the course they will pay for it. so this morning when i spoke to her, she said that i got accepted into them paying for my course if i chose to go ahead with studying.
i have decided to go ahead with studies, and have started the enrollment process through TAFE. i wasnt going to, i was going to wait but i find i am stuck in this rut of i am not actually doing anything to improve my future and that is starting to get to me. the more i think about it and my current situation the more suicidal i become so im hoping that this will help me get through abit more of the sticky stuff. Kind of like having a goal to work towards and getting a certificate at the end so its not 'pointless' either. can start putting some of my brain to good use. I worry itll trigger you so i wont say which course it is unless your ok.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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hello lovely @Teej 
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SnowieSenior Contributor
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@outlanderjust got home from kids sports.
I am glad you are having a day off, sounds like you need it.
Hoping tonight is a little easier
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Its been good having the day off @Snowie
I get half a day off tomorrow too then a busy afternoon so am lapping it up tonight
How are you going?
I get half a day off tomorrow too then a busy afternoon so am lapping it up tonight
How are you going?
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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It's enrolled nursing right? @outlander
It doesn't trigger me hun. Nursing is all around me. I picked up a pair of unused scrubs in the back room today. My nursing texts are in the lounge room. My nursing it is in my room and I see it everyday.
Just the fact you are looking forward is fantastic. It will give you purpose and direction.
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SnowieSenior Contributor
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@outlanderI am tired but going okish tonight. Will be an early night in bed after last night.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Yes and no.. @Sans911
They will be shorter courses for now. I spoke it over with the careers advisor and she also agrees that maybe a hectic course isnt quite suited right now and im not really set on a career path but i do want something in the health area.
I had previously done a medical terminology course however stupid me didnt check to see if the certificate counts in tafe/uni courses. It doesnt and the tafe one i just enrolled into is more advanced plus ill credits for future courses etc so works out more in my favour. I have the very basic knowledge of it like how the words are formed which was hard! but not to the tafe level so this will be a whole new challange.
I was worried it was going to upset you. I know it can be a tough spot.
I am looking forward to it, i have missed studying. I would appreciate your help if i get stuck, if you dont minf of course.
They will be shorter courses for now. I spoke it over with the careers advisor and she also agrees that maybe a hectic course isnt quite suited right now and im not really set on a career path but i do want something in the health area.
I had previously done a medical terminology course however stupid me didnt check to see if the certificate counts in tafe/uni courses. It doesnt and the tafe one i just enrolled into is more advanced plus ill credits for future courses etc so works out more in my favour. I have the very basic knowledge of it like how the words are formed which was hard! but not to the tafe level so this will be a whole new challange.
I was worried it was going to upset you. I know it can be a tough spot.
I am looking forward to it, i have missed studying. I would appreciate your help if i get stuck, if you dont minf of course.
