rough time

@outlanderThere is a government subisdy now called HECS-HELP which gives you almost 100K to study. You don't pay it back until you start earning over 54K. You would certainly qualify for this.

I believe you really need to be stable a lot more first before you cope with the demands of study. You can acheive stability if you are willing to try hard and keep trying, which I know you can do. But it takes a fair bit of time and practice to acheive stability. Adding stress on top of stress can really make it difficult. You are very intellegent and dedicated, so the study won't be so difficult, but the stress load on top will be extra challenging.

I'm prepared to help you acheive stability, but I want to do it with you when you have added support. It is why I have been pushing you to try to find someone like a pyschologist or counseller as I you do need someone to bounce things off and to help you unravel and re-learn things. You have tried really hard to find this support, and I know it hasn't been easy, but I believe there is someone out there who is right for you.

Did you get to reading any of those links I sent you at all?

@CheerBearDitto.I would love a longer chat than just a hi/bye. I am doing ok, it's been a ho-hum kind of day. Nothing exciting has happened today nor nothing horrendous so I guess that's a reasonable day then.

Hello @Snowie Yeah, I am ok hun.It's pouring rain here and getting dark quickly. I went to an expo, and came back sooner than I thought. So I had a shower, and in my pjs before 4pm. No intentions of going anywhere else today. I have a little volunteer computer work to do, and I will probably watch a movie on dvd.

The two boy cats have been fighting, and Mr A in the fluffy cat bed looking at me with sad eyes. Jasper is on the cat rug next to the bed.Looks like they may go to sleep for a bit before their dinner.

When you talk about headspace @outlander will all of it be by phone or will the counseller be face to face?

I know you say the study helps with coping; that's because it's a distraction. Distractions are great, however, they don't fix anything, they just delay things until you're better able to cope. So by studying, you're progress in self development and growth will be slower as you'll be too fixated on getting through your studies. Before you know, you're in your mid 20s and still struggling. Do you want that? You are still very young, and right now your pop takes up a lot of your time and focus. Forgive me for being blunt, and I certainly don't mean to hurt your feelings or make you upset, but he won't be there forever. Spend quality time with him now, focus on improving your life, getting stability and moving forward, and study can wait when you can devote time and energy to really succeed. And I think you should study on campus, because as much as it scares you, you need to develop social and interpersonal skills, and that will help.

It would be some time until you reach the threshold for HECS-HELP @outlander

You would need to be working full-time before you reached that level.

I thought I sent you some stuff about emotions. If not I can do if you like. But only look at these things when you are calm. You won't take anything in if you are distressed or overwhelmed

@outlanderit went ok hun