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@Sans911 are you still around at all?

Yes lil Sis @outlander

Will you sit with me for abit?. Ive been missing you too @Sans911 you dont have to talk if you dont want to but your welcome to or to talk about anything at all xox

@outlander - lil Sis of course I'll sit with you. I'm so sorry that you miss me. And I miss you so much too. But I'm making sure you are supported each day.

It's just hard to impose my burdens yet again on you.

Thank you and never be sorry @Sans911 your always with me but still miss you. Your one of my angels 💜

Your not burdening me but we all feel like that sometimes. Im sure you wrote deleted and rewrote that post because of those burdening feelings-i do that too.

how about you share abit of your stuff (whatever your comfortable with ) and we can chat tonight then tomorrow when ive digested today events ill write some of mine up?

Or we can just talk in general if you like?

I've not written anything nor deleted a post at all in the last few days @outlander. I don't even know what to say because I feel like such a moaner and whinger.

I didn't get any help really after my suicide attempts at 17. I was so traumatised by my childhood I ran away from it as fast as I could. But I wish I had someone that could see at that age I needed help.

I've lost so much in the last few years. I lost my dream job, I've destroyed my reputation as a nurse, I've lost my direction and purpose. I no longer know where I am going.

I'm tired @outlander, so very tired. Of fighting for everything I need in my life. Right from the time I was a very small tot I've had to fight. I can't do it anymore. I don't want to do it. I want to give up so very much, but I can't even get that right. I just want to lay down and not get back up again

Your not a moaner or a whinger @Sans911 your hurting alot. I cant fully understand because im not in your shoes but i can hear your tired and hurting. I wish i could come over WA and help you and be there for you in person. You deserve so much more good in your life. Your working bloody hard to get your life sorted but your often let down by others. Thats not your doing or your mistakes that is the professionals they arent listening properly. Please dont give up i will keep fighting with you. And when you cant fight ill lay on the floor with you until you can get back up
Big hugs sis im hearing you 💓

@outlander - thanks sweetheart. Your words have released a torrent of tears, and Jasper is looking at me most strangely.

I've just taken my night meds so I'm going to log off. You need to go to sleep soon too my angel as I understand the sleep deprivation has been getting to you.

Will you be ok if I go now. I know you been talking to Maz, is she still around to chat to?

Aww @Sans911 big hugs and give Jasper a hug for me too. 💌
I will be ok, ill be watching over and will try to sleep soon. Yep she is still around atm

Goodnight sleep well 💜💜