rough time

@outlander

im glad youre feeling ok to stay online chatting, plus a good distraction for you luv.

understandable that you would feel physically worse when you arent feeling well emotionally. i would definitely push for blood tests to see what is going on, or at least rule out things that it isnt.

a roller coaster sort of day by the sounds of it @Snowiemaybe another day wull be better for a catchup with friends. i seen you watched my favourite episode with sheldon the other night. i like that episode.

thats a big day @Snowie esp the traffic part too. i was suppose to have my psych but i cancelled it. i have my pdoc tomorrow too but im not sure if ill be going to that either. ive got my siblings tomorrow as well. depends on what time mum gets home as i dont want to take them. the waiting room is always full and crowded. its usually my only time to myself as well. will see how goes in the morning. will ring by 9ish though if im cancelling. tbh dont see the point in going, she doesnt help and she communicates with my gp anyway. so if i cancel will just take my medicare stuff into them- the rebates comes to me and i give them to the clinic/

pops been harping at me all day so that hasnt helped and his friggin brother making thins worse yesterday as well.

ive been doing literally nothing. all day. havent been able to my hands been in alot of apin and havent been sleeping much and rough day yesterday and night so just needed to chill abit.

im usually ok @Bella1978 will try to stay for abit tonight though. yep everythings on the list for wednesdays gp appt so will see how it goes after that.

how are you?

@outlanderjust frustrated at myself that I stopped us going for lunch. I told H to go without me and take the kids, but he wouldn't, so they missed out on a fun day b/c of me Yes a big day tomorrow.

I agree hun, the last thing you want is to take your siblings to the pdoc with you. That needs to be your time. Hard when your Pop is like that. Just try and ignore him hun even though I know it is super hard for you to do that.

Doing nothing all day is ok. Sometimes we need that "time out" where we can just chill and that is totally fine. Seems like your mind and body are telling you that you needed it

@outlander

good girl 🙂 write everything down for your appt on wednesday. i hope they listen to you and do further tests. you think they could figure that out on their own lol!

im pretty exhausted - ive just updated my other thread in living experiences luv with what has been happenning lately. been full on with mum, as per usual but i just gotta keep going luv as she needs me. ive had a day off today though, didnt go to the hospital as i needed to catch up on chores and just stay home.

im just resting on my bed atm. nice to not do anything hehe but distressed as bachelor in paradise isnt on! when u get a chance check out my other thread luv so u can get up to date with my oh so exciting life lol!

one day of missing out isnt much @Snowie they will forgive quite easily.

try to fit some self care in there tomorrow too.

will just need to wait on mum to check timing. if not will have to cancel but will take a spin out there later on to hand in those papers and reshedule. thats the third time ive had to cancel the damn thing. i dont like her anyway but its wasting their time.

want to know what i go in trouble from yesterday from pop and my uncle? something really stupid but they wouldnt let me forget it.

it wasnt really time out, i was still doing things for pop and trying to organise a few things so i guess it wasnt really nothing but alot less than usual. my hands caneing tonight. i tried the massage thing but my hands way to tender for some reason. mightve been when i was trying to open a jar lid.

ive had a few different opinions on my stomach troubles. one is very concerned and the other is meh but was concerned when the other gp spoke up. im more worried as the gp thats concerned works in a hospital as well and was talking about a stomach ulcer ble--eding or eating away more at my stomach lining and then ill be in trouble so it has me concerned too.

i just caught up on your thread. im glad you had the day off but your sister didnt help matters at all. they dont get in unless they see what we see on a daily basis. they talk the talk but they dont back it up- gets rather frustrating and upsetting. my families the same bloody way.

oh no its not on! how about another tv show or movie you like? @Bella1978

They forgive me @outlander, but I don't forgive myself. It is a wicked cycle sometimes our mind and the tricks and things it puts us through.

I am sure you got into trouble over some pitful little thing that you didn't need reminding again. You need to take care of your hand hun, perhaps some heat or ice might help tonight.

it is a very wicked cycle @Snowie a horrid one.

yep they got the craps with me because i didnt come rushing out to see my uncle for over an hr. i was sorting out my appts and was busy so got in trouble and was called rude and all sorts and they like to play the guilt card on me so it sent me spriling abit quicker yesterday. im over that part, its not the first and wont be last itll happen. he likes being centre of attention. all well hes gone home now

i cant handle the weight on my hand @Snowie and i cant get my hand wet so cant put it in hot water. i just keep rubbing it to try and ease abit of the nerve pain stuff and took more pain relief so hoping hat helps

@outlanderglad he has gone home now, might be a bit easier on you and your Pop might lay off you a bit.

Hopefully the pain relief will help once it kicks in and your hand will feel a bi better.