rough time

well i dont think your too bad 😉 @Former-Member yep a pain but rather be safe than not have numbers.

how are you holding up tonight?

@outlanderyes much rather to be safe.

I am actually going ok. I had some flashbacks today but were able to manage them quite well. I haven't got any SH/SI thoughts at the moment so am enjoying it whilst it lasts. Always a bit on edge because I know they can hit me at any time, but am going to enjoy a clear head whilst I can

Not sure how I will go sleeping tonight but think that will be probably b/c hubby will be on a plane somewhere over an ocean!!!

How are you feeling now that you got your phone at least sorted.

@Former-Member, I watch a bit of criminal minds but have to look at the sotry line first to see if it will trigger me. He is in a show called SWAT now which is not bad but again check the storey line first.

Not a big fan of green tea either but like peppermint tea and coffee!!

@Owlunaryes.. another injury. starting to think about walking around in a bubble wrap suit. at least i know the horses wouldnt bother me. i hate the universe right about now!

yeh my mothers a number alright- the entire family is but i cant control them i can only control me- we picked up the damn animal today and they wondered why i wasnt excited. its just another horse for me to be looking after i already know it. my sister was excited though, i went up said hes cute then walked away. i honestly dont care. i mean about wellbeing ect but its just another horse to me which is a shame really but its the way it is.

my psychaitrist- is yet again not happy. i made all the positive changes and it still wasnt enough. no pleasing her i only see her every 6 weeks anyway for medication reviews. monday i see gp for the rest of med review, wound checks, and also get tested for stomach ulcers. i feel so bruised/tender more where my gallbladder and liver is but radiates to my stomach so its really hard to pinpoint anything. no use complaining i guess though. cant do much about it, just over it all

use to watch alot of shows but cant now. @Former-Member@Former-Member i really dont watch to much tv at all.

lol @Former-Member no use arguing with you over that anymore is it

@Former-Memberim glad your going ok and things are settled at least for now but hr by hr still hey. i do hope you sleep tonight.

im going abit better now the phones changed over but still sorting through things. still trying to work out a few things behind the scenes too and have emotional turmoil going on but am better than before

@outlanderglad you are still feeling a bit better now. Yes still hour by hour here waiting for it all to go pear shaped, but trying to have a postivie outlook and enjoying it while I can.

@Former-Member, you are right, she is cute!

your not suppose to agree with her! @Former-Member see what youve started @Former-Member

@Former-Memberwas feeling better. am expecting things to go a little pear shaped considering i hade something small to eat- always does and just getting those waves of everything feels sick and dizzy but dont know why or do know but cant pinpoint where it is that is sick jsut all of you.well keep talking here and having a positive look. not long till hubby is home now. less than 24hrs