rough time

Thanks @outlander. Nice to hear from you

@Sans911 how are you going? Hows your day been?

I'm kinda OK tonight @outlander but it's been a difficult day. I spoke to my case manager this afternoon about my mother and I got quite upset. There's nothing anyone can do about how I feel, and sometimes I feel I'm overreacting & should just suck it up. People tell me that I should be grateful to have a mother when others don't. Sometimes it's just all too hard, and I'm so fed up with myself.

I saw my go this morning on an unrelated matter but she could tell I was upset & she offered me a hug.

And I guess like you I'm now getting anxious about my surgery. Worried about complications & whether I will be OK mh wise. Being a nurse doesn't always protect me.

You've been very quiet for a while now. I'm worried about you. How are you doing tonight?

Hugs and hugs sis @Sans911 i understand your mother situation. I dont have much to say that might help cause im in a similar situation but always more then ok to listen. Its is really hard when our mothers arent being very motherly esp when we need them the most. Your allowed to be upset over it.

That was nice of your gp to give you a hug. She sounds like a genuine person not just see people as $$.


You are a wonderful nurse but your profession doesnt make you immune to things unfortunately. From what youve told me though your surgeons are being really thorough and are being well prepared. I know that doesnt stop the worries though but thats ok, its ok to be scared 💜


I have been quite busy with all of pops appointments and managing my mh, (though im not sure im doing very good job of it). High SI and SH urges lately too.

Today was a really bad day though. Im not sure if ive ever been so overwhelmed and people constantly yelling-more specifically pop- wasnt making things any better. I ended up having one of the nurses allow me to sit in another room for a little bit to regroup.

I thought of you today while i was at the appt and a possible work suggestion but im not sure your up for that atm.....

Im wishing for November to hurry up abit now. My teeth are so sore. The 2 that are basically straight with just a slight angle upwards have decided they would like to try and erupt so i have a lumpwhere one tooth is but it wont actually erupt but if it moves to much itll keep cracking the adjoining tooth. That one isnt to bad but the other one is trying to erupt. I can feel the point of the tooth but because its already impacted the adjoining tooth it probably wont actually erupt itll just sit there and be a pain.

Had the psych on friday which wasnt helpful. Its been a yr and i still dont feel all that comfortable with her. She was quite judgemental aand frustrated that i didnt have answers either I only have 2 sessions left but i dont think ill be using them.

Goodnight @Former-Member 💌💌

Also gota letter today telling me i have to redo a test because the machine malfunctioned. Im going to talk to gp Thursday though and see if its really neccessary because its really restricting and cant keep putting days off for it
@Sans911

I almost deleted my last post as I thought it was perhaps too much of a whine considering what you are going through.

I can hear all of your frustrations; everything sounds so difficult and stressful. Your caught up in such a difficult position with your pop that makes communication with him challenging, and hurtful to you.

Those damn teeth of yours--November can't come fast enough can it?

Hearing you about the pyschologist. If she hasn't been helpful now, two more sessions isn't going to help, and you're probably better off not going.

Hugs for the hard times lil Sis @outlander 💜 💜 💜

No definently not to much ofa whine @Sans911 i dont mind listening. I care very much about you and Whats happening in your life 💜

No november cannot come soon enough. Only 3 months to go now though.

Thank you for hearing me about all the :pile_of_poo: despite the hard stuff happening for you too 💜



Have you got much on tomorrow?

I'm always willing to listen to you @outlander. I get frustrated on your behalf because there's nothing I can do. We all have varying degrees of hard stuff to go through. And each day we get up and go through it again.

I've got a walk in the morning tommorow, then the dentist in the afternoon to adjust the plate I wear. It got relined last week and now it's rubbing on my upper plate. They need to take back a little bit of the reline. The reline cost me quite a bit of money and my health insurance isn't up to date so I can't claim on it. It was another thing that I was supposed to take care and pay up to date but I didn't. I need to sort it out soon.

@outlander 💜 💜