rough time

Ive been using the worry box and journalling as well @Sans911 it hasnt been that helpful. Ir can work both ways it seems. Usually it helps to lay it out and put it away sort of thing but can go the other way where it looks more than id once thought too. Has been having abit more of that effect so i havent done that tonight or yesterday.

Being busy has helped abit esp with a job to do and think about for most of the day but its always the nights when it slams me more esp with pop not being home either its alot quieter even though ive got the tv or music on most of the time.

My heart issues always get worse at night which doesnt help much either as it stops me from being able to sleep or even rest as well.

I knew these aniversaries were going to be hard but id forgotten how difficult they can be esp with a few all very close together. I guess i cant do much except try to keep putting one foot in front of the other for now.

Do you ever get stuck with what to do with health professionals? I had a missed call on friday from a pdoc who is very well known and highly reccomended and ive been able to be lucky enough for her to take me on as a patient but i havent been able to work up the courage to call back to make an appointment with her.

I could give meditation ago @Sans911 and no i dont have the app. Not on this phone anyway.

My gp and i are in disagreeance thats why she refferred me to the psychiatrist. I dont want to be on medications esp the ones that dont help like the ones im on now but she wants me to stay on them. Yeah it is reception thatll answer to make an appt. I just haven't been able to get that far. Maybe tomorrow sometime.

Thanks @Sans911 that is true. I sppose the only way to find out is to ask.

Im starting to fall asleep here ao will say goodnight now. Thanks for chatting 💜

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To you too @outlander

Sending you all love and hugs 💜💜

@Former-Member Hope you are able to cocoon yourself and treat yourself gently and kindly. It is extra hard when medical system is harsh.

Let us know what you think of your ptsd course. Going through the stuff will be triggering but hope it gives you tools to manage it.

Probably controlled breathing is the most helpful @Appleblossom

I think the course will be helpful in the long run. Just too many other things going on. The course would have been plenty to deal with on its own.

I cant believe the treatment we’ve been receiving from the hospital.

I mentioned it to the GP. They were shocked.

Im just not feeling strong enough to deal with it all just now. Even phoning for support seems too much.

I did phone a therapist last week. Oh gosh. That was pointless and hopeless.

I hope you’re going ok.