rough time

Indigenous Orchid

I think I have given a new meaning to worry wort. Lately and its even worse the past few days im worrying about everything. Its at the point now where im not sure if i am over reacting to things or if these are genuine concerns which then increases my anxiety more. The bullying,cyber safety,and a few others are the ones that hang around so much that it is keeping me up longer at night.

I am not sure if it has something to do with this month being full of aniversaries, medications, exposure therapy or the tougher therapy session i had on friday. I dont really know.

I have 2 appts tomorrow one more to get the results of my tests but i suppose I could talk in my next appt with my nurse and see what she thinks.

Ive had to stop watching tv because every add resonates (whether percieved or real) somewhere in my life. My dog escaped today and im well aware she doesnt like to be picked up because of her injury and abuse in her old family (she is a little rescue dog) and what did i do without thinking and more worrying about getting her safe pick her up so i have abit of a bite mark on my arm luckily she is little but it hasnt helped anything at all in the way ive been feeling.

I have many other complex emotions such as what i can only describe as 'mothers guilt' even though im not a mother. That part is a really big thing happening within me.

Im sorry that post is jumbled up. This phone makes things hard to do.

Hi and thanks for thinking of me @outlander

Its been absolute “hell” lately.

I’m so exhausted that I can barely read what I’m typing. My eyes are so blurry.

💜💖🌷🌸☕️

I might try and sleep.

Hi @Former-Member Hope you get rest.

@outlander You have so many things going on ... it sounds like it is really time for being gentle with you. I know what you mean when you do silly things cos one is in overwhelm, that normally we would manage better. Whatever the reasons it means "take Care" ...

Hope bite heals soon, and the whole bigger you ... gets back into a calmer state.

Hugs @Former-Member ❤