outlanderSenior Contributor
rough time
is anyone around to talk to atm
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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It isnt so much the people here that are causing these feelings. It is more to do with the situations im faced with i guess esp on the carers side. I hardly know what to say to anyone the surface stuff is ok like hows your day etc but anything more than that i struggle to relate with and vice versa with others. Most care for there partners where as i dont.
On the LE side its kinda the same thing. What do i talk to others about when my life is so repetitive boring and lacking in experience in so many things. I dont want to be the person who seems like they are wanting attention because that isnt me and the more threads im on that is what it feels like is happening (as in i get the strange feeling that some dont want me there or stay away because im talking there even if ive tagged into the conversation) as i said though, that is more about me and my own stupid emotions being out of control and not the people that are on here. My own sensitivity is getting in the way alot.
I suppose alot of the emotions from offline are brought onto here as well like the struggles with family not wanting me around, etc kind of like 'why would online be different to offline' sort of state of mind.
I wish my brain would focus on my amazing connections rather than the such minor things-it is a silly thing to be doing but i dont know how to make it stop.
Im really hoping that im not offending anyone because that isn't the intention. As i said it isnt the people here making me feel this way.
@Sans911 @Former-Member
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@outlander
I think you are saying that its likely a symptom of our own insecurities and mental illnesses? I can relate to that!
Please just know that you are always welcome on my threads, either on the Carers side or the Lived Experience side. Your input is always appreciated by me, in whatever capacity you feel up to on any given day. The mere fact that you care enough about others to post on their/our threads is often enough to make many of us feel just a little bit lighter in spirit. Sometimes what is said is secondary to simply knowing someone (you, in this case) has bothered to respond and is there with us, listening and understanding. So please never doubt the importance and likely impact your many contributions to other's threads have on them/us.
You have not said anything to offend, so please dont concern yourself about that.
I'm off to bed now, so I shall say good night. I hope you can manage some sleep, or at the least some decent overnight rest. Please make those calls if your SI becomes too 'loud' to resist. Take care Little One.
Sherry 🌺💤💕
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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I think so @Former-Member sometimes it seems more real then imagined but yes i think you summed it up better then what i said.
Good night, i hope you get some sleep
Xo
Good night, i hope you get some sleep
Xo
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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I don't see your life as repetitive or boring at all. Your life is complex, challenging and demanding, and you don't have any personal support, like a good friend, Aunty or whatever. So you come here to air your frustrations, talk about the challenges you've faced, and get support and encouragement. Each time, that's a bit different.
I think @Former-Member response above is spot on. And it's difficult to convey emotions, response or context through text messages, although I think this forum does it pretty well.
You always post with care, so I doubt how how anyone could be offended, and I've never been. By others yes, never you. And if you think you are lacking in experience, that's probably because you are just 22 years old. I barely knew anything by that, and even closer to 50, I'm a little wiser but I'm still learning new things all the time.
Give yourself a break lil Sis. No one else does, so be kinder to you. Right now, you're doing the best you can, and that is enough. If getting better from MI takes longer, it's OK. There is time. Now is not ideal.
@outlander
I think @Former-Member response above is spot on. And it's difficult to convey emotions, response or context through text messages, although I think this forum does it pretty well.
You always post with care, so I doubt how how anyone could be offended, and I've never been. By others yes, never you. And if you think you are lacking in experience, that's probably because you are just 22 years old. I barely knew anything by that, and even closer to 50, I'm a little wiser but I'm still learning new things all the time.
Give yourself a break lil Sis. No one else does, so be kinder to you. Right now, you're doing the best you can, and that is enough. If getting better from MI takes longer, it's OK. There is time. Now is not ideal.
@outlander
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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I feel old even despite my age. It feels like ive lived a lifetime already but at the same time ive done nothing too. It is hard..
You have wisdom probably much more then you realise. When you 'talk' people listen. It is quite interesting to witness on here actually. I dont know if learning ever stops though no matter how old you are.
Im sick and tired of being sick and tired. It isnt a nice place to be in. I know others knowhow that feels.
Do you want to share how your day went with all you had to do today sis? @Sans911
@CheerBear thinking of you too ❤
You have wisdom probably much more then you realise. When you 'talk' people listen. It is quite interesting to witness on here actually. I dont know if learning ever stops though no matter how old you are.
Im sick and tired of being sick and tired. It isnt a nice place to be in. I know others knowhow that feels.
Do you want to share how your day went with all you had to do today sis? @Sans911
@CheerBear thinking of you too ❤
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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It was a long day today @outlander but an alright day too. I had a coffee at a Cafe with my case manager this morning, which is the first time he's done that. That was a nice thing to do.
I then went to my GP appt. Despite not having seen her for two months, she was pretty impressed I was doing OK. My recent blood tests were OK, but my cholesterol has climbed past the reasonable barrier to being a concern. If it goes higher in six months, it's time for meds. That's a big incentive to get my weight down. Even before I lost weight, it wasnt at this level. I discussed going back to work, but she won't lift the restrictions yet, so we'll discuss it again in six months & I'll focus on my studies for now.
I went to the library after that to study for a few hours. It was nice and cool there too. My psychologist changed my appt to later in the afternoon, so that gave me some time to spare.
My appt this afternoon was fine, more of a catch up then anything else. I told her I sh a few weeks ago. She wasn't impressed, but glad that I eventually sorted myself out. For now, all she wants is my stability before we start working on the deeper things.
By the time I came home, it was time to feed Mr A and Jasper. I took Mr A outside for a little while. He enjoyed himself today. It's still very warm right now. Makes it difficult to settle.
Tommorow I have two volunteer events, a knitting group in the morning and a coffee group in the afternoon.
I then went to my GP appt. Despite not having seen her for two months, she was pretty impressed I was doing OK. My recent blood tests were OK, but my cholesterol has climbed past the reasonable barrier to being a concern. If it goes higher in six months, it's time for meds. That's a big incentive to get my weight down. Even before I lost weight, it wasnt at this level. I discussed going back to work, but she won't lift the restrictions yet, so we'll discuss it again in six months & I'll focus on my studies for now.
I went to the library after that to study for a few hours. It was nice and cool there too. My psychologist changed my appt to later in the afternoon, so that gave me some time to spare.
My appt this afternoon was fine, more of a catch up then anything else. I told her I sh a few weeks ago. She wasn't impressed, but glad that I eventually sorted myself out. For now, all she wants is my stability before we start working on the deeper things.
By the time I came home, it was time to feed Mr A and Jasper. I took Mr A outside for a little while. He enjoyed himself today. It's still very warm right now. Makes it difficult to settle.
Tommorow I have two volunteer events, a knitting group in the morning and a coffee group in the afternoon.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Oh wow a big day indeed but sounds like it was prodictive and nice in some parts too. The plans youve got in place like reducing your cholesterol becoming more stable and focussing on your studies sounds good.
I am lucky its abit cooler here today but still need the fan on. Having trouble getting to sleep as usual here but im use to that. Reflux and hot flushes are bloody awful tonight.
Sounds like Mr A might be settling in abit more now with the the different noises and things? Hows Jasper? @Sans911
I am lucky its abit cooler here today but still need the fan on. Having trouble getting to sleep as usual here but im use to that. Reflux and hot flushes are bloody awful tonight.
Sounds like Mr A might be settling in abit more now with the the different noises and things? Hows Jasper? @Sans911
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member 💗 you having trouble sleeping too?
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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Hot flushes here too lil Sis but for other reasons! I often have the fan going all night and wake up drenched in the morning. Ick.
Jasper needs his claws cut desperately but I can't find the clippers. He's been OK today. Now his stomach has settled he's a lot hungrier, so he's a bit of a guts atm. I'm not sure where he is right now but he's likely to be looking out the security screen door.
@outlander
Jasper needs his claws cut desperately but I can't find the clippers. He's been OK today. Now his stomach has settled he's a lot hungrier, so he's a bit of a guts atm. I'm not sure where he is right now but he's likely to be looking out the security screen door.
@outlander
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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They suck @Sans911 so icky
Theres no reason for mine tonight but when so bodies need permission to do the things they do hey
Im one of those people who have the fan going but still sleep under the covers lol.
He must be feeling better, being hungry is a good sign! At least while hes occupied looking out the door hes not finding cockroaches or other bugs to bring into your room!
Theres no reason for mine tonight but when so bodies need permission to do the things they do hey
Im one of those people who have the fan going but still sleep under the covers lol.
He must be feeling better, being hungry is a good sign! At least while hes occupied looking out the door hes not finding cockroaches or other bugs to bring into your room!
