rough time

Hello @Shaz51 how are you going?

@Sans911 im just abit off from one of 'those' days. Its almost over now so can start again tomorrow.
How are you going?

Your up late @Shaz51
Are you ok?

I'm sort of OK @outlander. I feel like an outsider with my foster family as much as I do with my own family lately. It's like I don't really 'fit' any more with them, I have nothing interesting to say or talk about. It's an uncomfortable feeling and so I left their home early tonight, took my foster mother home and now back at the resort.

I complained about not having internet reception here on my phone and that I wasn't impressed paying for WiFi, so they told me to log into the WiFi and they would cover the cost of it.

Now I can talk to you while I'm here 🙂

Well that is a good thing isnt it! @Sans911 so glad they will be covering the cost.

Im sorry its an uncomfortable situation. You are an interesting person though even if it may not seem it but it may not be the things you want to share though like your op shop volunterring, your suicide support group (?) Coming up and then having the opportunity to move onto facilitator.

It's just they're into different things (my foster sister's children that is). They're in there 30`s and they all get along really well. So even though they don't mean to, I often get left out of the conversation. And my sister has been busy helping look after the grandchildren. I'm not jealous or envious of that, but I just feel like an extra cog.

I see makes it hard/awkward to have a conversation doesnt it. Im much the same. When at family events i pretty much just sit there too not knowing what to say to anyone. @Sans911
your not an extra cog here i can tell you that for certain

I think you may have gone to bed @Sans911 so ill say goodnight now but will check in soon and see if you want to keep chatting

Sorry lil Sis @outlander. I dropped out. Like Zoe, once I've taken my meds I drop off to sleep really quickly. Often I don't get a chance to send that last post. But I'm so keen to chat to you some days I try to push past that point. The meds always win.

No need to apologise sis @Sans911 i would rather you be sleeping be ❤

Do you have much on today?

Im feeling weird and off this morning but I need to do my horse jobs as well ss feeding my own so the kids will meet me there about 11 but im heading there more like 10ish so i can do the other things first.

Not much for me to do today. I'm just about to go for a walk on the beach, and maybe a swim after.

I forgot my bathers (along with a couple of other things) so I bought a pair in an op shop yesterday. They were brand new, still with tags on and cost me only $4!

I'll be back in about half hour Sis. Well chat then if you're around and not busy. Hugs for you my angel 🤗

@outlander