rough time

Thanks @Appleblossom. How are you, and how's your day been?

morning @Sans911 (and everyone)
Sorry, i mustve crashed before being able to talk to you.

It sounds like a good day yesterday esp with being productive and being ok with it all too. Im also really glad you werent judged for being open about your mh. How often will you be going there?


some of the urges was easing off after talking to you but yesterday reset it all off. I didnt even think properly yesterday afternoon and self harmed twice. im so dissapointed in myself for even doing that and im sorry (so sorry) to you guys to because i said if i got to that point i would reach out 😞
i am still really emotional even though its over something that seems minor. but im going to have to ride it out till it passes again

Please don't be sorry to me or yourself because you sh. You've done exceptionally well for some time, and obviously things are super difficult right now. And sometimes we don't think before sh, we just react. It's a coping mechanism, not the healthiest, but for now it's what you do. They key to trying to stop your sh is recognising the build up of emotions(which you do) and then trying to sit with those huge emotions. And that's really hard at first.

Be gentle with you. You've already suffered enough. Don't punish yourself. You've probably done that plenty already. Hugs my angel @outlander 💜 💜

thanks for understanding as always sis. Sitting with big emotions is tiring, even after over 8hrs sleep it doesnt feel like its even made a dent in anything.
After our chat it made me thing about a few things and so im trying to make a step forward but this adjustment even though it sounds stupid i think ill just need to work with it and learn to accept and adjust with it.

your in my thoughts alot too @Snowie thanks for checking in sis

Thinking of you a lot today @outlander. You're one of my firsts thoughts. You can get through this. Put your brave on. All the best my angel. Hugs and hugs