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THE dark side

Bubbles3Senior Contributor02 Jan 2018, 12:02 pm AEDT

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Shaz51Senior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 7:16 pm AEDT

Re: THE dark side

still with you @Bubbles3

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 7:17 pm AEDT

Re: THE dark side

Thanks @Shaz51

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 7:17 pm AEDT

Re: THE dark side

Have you managed to speak to your GP about a specialist who is trained in dissociation disorders ? I really think you need some help with Mark, and Leah, and Kelly, from someone who understands what is going on for you.

@Bubbles3

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 7:18 pm AEDT

Re: THE dark side

No not yet @Faith-and-Hope

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 7:34 pm AEDT

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I really think that is the way to move forward @Bubbles3 ....

Cos like my hubby’s “out there” eating disordered behaviours, gp’s and other medical people are not trained to recognise these things ...... the usual symptoms for the usual presentations are missing, and the symptoms he does have that scream out that there is something very wrong are well hidden .... so it will take a specialist, or a major health collapse that lands him in hospital where the hidden symptoms can’t stay hidden to be able to find it.

It’s the same for you. There are other conditions where people hear voices .... but yours is different because it’s not just voices for you .... you can see Mark, Leah and Kelly, can’t you ? You have told us their ages and what they look like ..... that is different from “just” voices, and you need to be speaking to someone who is a specialist in this type of condition, to identify it properly, explain treatment to you and what you can expect from that, and begin that treatmentwhen you are ready to work with it.

But you also need protection. You need protection from people who don’t understand and are causing you distress ..... you need protection from your need to sh ..... you need support in your home and relationships until everything is in a better way ..... and you need mental and emotional support for yourself.

Ask to be referred Hon .... see what comes of it, huh ? I want to see you better cared for than this, and I know I’m not alone in that.

💜💐

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 9:21 pm AEDT

Re: THE dark side

I will look into it.

Just done another SH
When to doc ro get it sorted

3 in one day

Hopefully thats the last of it. Hubby wont be happy when he gets home and sees them all.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor08 Mar 2018, 9:23 pm AEDT